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Saturday, November 24, 2012
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
:C
7/11 (Wed)
His birthday is tomorrow. Because of me, we had a quarrel again. I really hate it when everytime he said he don't have mood to continue his work then goes to bed. For all the urging and tolerance I made, it's just not helpful enough or what? So no doubt the reason is still me?! He suppose to hand in most of his homework weeks ago, but he dint. So it's already a late submission and he don't mind? Even though he kept on convincing me that he can finish it before his birthday.
But now I think he won't get to finish it in time and I don't get to celebrate with him. Cause he's pissed with me and my bad temper for not tolerating him, he actually asked me to not scold him that much? So actually all is my bad huh?? I start every single argument, every quarrel is because of me, I'm the cause of your mood swing to not continue your work, hence I'm the one who always cause you can't finish your work in time. In conclusion, I'm the one at fault right??
Well I admit I got bad temper and always lose control, I won't be prefect and so does him. I already did tried my best to suit to his likes and dislikes, and even his shit lifestyle which is so inhuman. What else I need to do?? Isn't love about tolerating and suiting each other? Maybe our case's not the same as I thought, no trust, only scarification and endless crying. He only feel the hatred he had towards me, no more love and pity for his loyal gf? :'(
And now after one year plus, it's great that he don't even care whether I'm crying or not, he only think it's annoying. When he's pissed, he only will ignore me and get some sleep cause he's freaking tired for all those late-sleeping rushing for homework. He won't chase me back at all, no call, nothing at all, he wouldn't worry about me even a single bit. And I'm the one always finding him back. Just now he said he wanted freedom, most probably get irritated by me already.
I think I can't find any reason to bother him already I guess? Maybe that's the best birthday gift I can give him, and he wanted it that badly too. All that explain why I'm so undeserved, and it really really serve me right. * I'm really worried about his future and ours as well, but now no need to worry anymore? :/
His birthday is tomorrow. Because of me, we had a quarrel again. I really hate it when everytime he said he don't have mood to continue his work then goes to bed. For all the urging and tolerance I made, it's just not helpful enough or what? So no doubt the reason is still me?! He suppose to hand in most of his homework weeks ago, but he dint. So it's already a late submission and he don't mind? Even though he kept on convincing me that he can finish it before his birthday.
But now I think he won't get to finish it in time and I don't get to celebrate with him. Cause he's pissed with me and my bad temper for not tolerating him, he actually asked me to not scold him that much? So actually all is my bad huh?? I start every single argument, every quarrel is because of me, I'm the cause of your mood swing to not continue your work, hence I'm the one who always cause you can't finish your work in time. In conclusion, I'm the one at fault right??
Well I admit I got bad temper and always lose control, I won't be prefect and so does him. I already did tried my best to suit to his likes and dislikes, and even his shit lifestyle which is so inhuman. What else I need to do?? Isn't love about tolerating and suiting each other? Maybe our case's not the same as I thought, no trust, only scarification and endless crying. He only feel the hatred he had towards me, no more love and pity for his loyal gf? :'(
And now after one year plus, it's great that he don't even care whether I'm crying or not, he only think it's annoying. When he's pissed, he only will ignore me and get some sleep cause he's freaking tired for all those late-sleeping rushing for homework. He won't chase me back at all, no call, nothing at all, he wouldn't worry about me even a single bit. And I'm the one always finding him back. Just now he said he wanted freedom, most probably get irritated by me already.
I think I can't find any reason to bother him already I guess? Maybe that's the best birthday gift I can give him, and he wanted it that badly too. All that explain why I'm so undeserved, and it really really serve me right. * I'm really worried about his future and ours as well, but now no need to worry anymore? :/
ws
Monday, October 15, 2012
the last night?
15/10 (Mon)
Yea, I deactivated my Facebook account, not sure when I'm going to activate back. I'm pretty sure no one's going to miss me too. Gone to Beijing for 8 days, received nothing but 1 text from him and a bunch of not so useful notifications in Facebook.
Okay, if my action will let us come to an end then just let me regret. Maybe there's not turning back anymore, I don't know. As what he said, I'm the one that screwed things up. He got fed up and given up hope on me already. He went to bed again, ignoring my calls, leaving me all alone in my Kampar room, crying and then finally calmed down myself to start writing this post. What I did on Saturday night was the last he could handle huh?
So what is left to us now? Guess I'll need to suit the new life without him so soon? Best of luck to him too, we don't need to keep in touch anymore. Not now, maybe a few years later if we're really done this time. By the way, I'm glad I passed all subject with B last sem. So later 11am will be the first class of my new sem in degree, I'm kinda afraid I can't find any accompany. *sigh :(
YK I'm sorry, take care.
Yea, I deactivated my Facebook account, not sure when I'm going to activate back. I'm pretty sure no one's going to miss me too. Gone to Beijing for 8 days, received nothing but 1 text from him and a bunch of not so useful notifications in Facebook.
Okay, if my action will let us come to an end then just let me regret. Maybe there's not turning back anymore, I don't know. As what he said, I'm the one that screwed things up. He got fed up and given up hope on me already. He went to bed again, ignoring my calls, leaving me all alone in my Kampar room, crying and then finally calmed down myself to start writing this post. What I did on Saturday night was the last he could handle huh?
So what is left to us now? Guess I'll need to suit the new life without him so soon? Best of luck to him too, we don't need to keep in touch anymore. Not now, maybe a few years later if we're really done this time. By the way, I'm glad I passed all subject with B last sem. So later 11am will be the first class of my new sem in degree, I'm kinda afraid I can't find any accompany. *sigh :(
YK I'm sorry, take care.
ws
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Nothing but trash
27/9 (Thurs)
I'm already a degree students right now, sem 3 *foundation's last sem was a disaster @@ I'm having a very bad lifestyle starting from end of May, my meal and slumber are all in mess. It's hard for me to find friends to accompany me for dinner 'cause everyone has different timetable so it's kinda like hard to match? Well, degree wasn't a total nightmare but it sure did taught me a lot of stuff. Especially every paid off doesn't mean you're going to get what you have been expecting. I thought making new friends is suppose to be like what I've in mind, but I was wrong.
I have wondered why am I excluded all the times, start from the Ipoh trip to the last farewell thingy which really made me cried like a SH, there is really no excuse I can make for them to not involve me. I think I've had enough, it's just the matter of intention. I should have known that they don't even count me as a member in their gang, all those helps I offered, all the conversations we have are like nothing to them. I even get criticised by one of them through fb status. So is just like I'm a brainless freak that did all those stuffs to get myself abandoned, and that makes me the loser in the end. Next sem would be better?! I don't know :(
Okay, my 1st ever post in 2012, I really abandon here too long. Sorry bloggie :S But this time I just want to express my feelings, even though I stop blogging because I don't want to effect others' mood. I'm just way too pessimist :(
I'm already a degree students right now, sem 3 *foundation's last sem was a disaster @@ I'm having a very bad lifestyle starting from end of May, my meal and slumber are all in mess. It's hard for me to find friends to accompany me for dinner 'cause everyone has different timetable so it's kinda like hard to match? Well, degree wasn't a total nightmare but it sure did taught me a lot of stuff. Especially every paid off doesn't mean you're going to get what you have been expecting. I thought making new friends is suppose to be like what I've in mind, but I was wrong.
I have wondered why am I excluded all the times, start from the Ipoh trip to the last farewell thingy which really made me cried like a SH, there is really no excuse I can make for them to not involve me. I think I've had enough, it's just the matter of intention. I should have known that they don't even count me as a member in their gang, all those helps I offered, all the conversations we have are like nothing to them. I even get criticised by one of them through fb status. So is just like I'm a brainless freak that did all those stuffs to get myself abandoned, and that makes me the loser in the end. Next sem would be better?! I don't know :(
About my love life, I really don't know how to maintain it anymore. It's just like I'm the one wasting time, whatever efforts I gave wasn't good enough, I'm doing noting right but making matters worse and what else?? I'm seriously done with all those teasing and requests I need to fulfil, but there's nothing I can do about it. Isn't coupling suppose to be happy?? Maybe that's what suck attitude (me) deserved. I'm really tired and helpless, I don't know what's wrong with our relationship. I'm already trying my best to give it all but can it really last?? I just know the habit of late-sleeping is going to last...
ws :'(
Monday, October 24, 2011
Back - Sem 2 :)
24/10 (Mon)
Just gotta the feeling to blog again, don't scold me for leaving here so long... Recently my life was quite a mess with arguments and tears, emotion was quite unstable. So if I wrote something here, sure I'll write out something very unhappy like my last post. But now I'm quite okay already, don't worry as I don't like people or maybe friends to worry about me. So those unhappy moments better just kept in my mind set okay?? ;)
Last weekend I missed out something due to daring by you with anger but I gained another thing as well. Haizz, but losing the chance to have fun with them is definitely my own fault... In turn, I got the chance to back Ipoh and go for Mr. Lai's food party with KC and SW on Saturday. And don't forget I went to blood-donation last week :P And last week I got my 1st presentation this sem, it was a disaster D: I just dislike public speaking, hopefully the marks is still okay ==
Today evening rained like cats and dogs in Kampar, my bicycle over night in the campus for the 2nd or 3rd times I think =3= It was still consider as a "okay" day until just now, my besty said she don't think I love you that much?! Erghh, it just give me the feelings like all those tears I shed is useless... A little frustrated when I see this appearing in her chat box with this shit line but maybe she's right... Haizz, whatever is it. I just don't know what to say when the topic is you. Many things happened and that's all :C
Just hope that tomorrow will be a better day I guess..
Just gotta the feeling to blog again, don't scold me for leaving here so long... Recently my life was quite a mess with arguments and tears, emotion was quite unstable. So if I wrote something here, sure I'll write out something very unhappy like my last post. But now I'm quite okay already, don't worry as I don't like people or maybe friends to worry about me. So those unhappy moments better just kept in my mind set okay?? ;)
Last weekend I missed out something due to daring by you with anger but I gained another thing as well. Haizz, but losing the chance to have fun with them is definitely my own fault... In turn, I got the chance to back Ipoh and go for Mr. Lai's food party with KC and SW on Saturday. And don't forget I went to blood-donation last week :P And last week I got my 1st presentation this sem, it was a disaster D: I just dislike public speaking, hopefully the marks is still okay ==
Today evening rained like cats and dogs in Kampar, my bicycle over night in the campus for the 2nd or 3rd times I think =3= It was still consider as a "okay" day until just now, my besty said she don't think I love you that much?! Erghh, it just give me the feelings like all those tears I shed is useless... A little frustrated when I see this appearing in her chat box with this shit line but maybe she's right... Haizz, whatever is it. I just don't know what to say when the topic is you. Many things happened and that's all :C
Just hope that tomorrow will be a better day I guess..
WS ;)
Sunday, October 02, 2011
Good-bye!
2/10 (Sun)
I closed my laptop at 4am, you want to say that I online fb till 5am. Hahaha, that time I'm very mad searching the message that contain your password in our fb chat, you said I can sacrifice for fb but not for you?! Yes, no reason for that action, yesterday till now already make me out of my mind. All this made me unlike a girl right?! You honestly think I could handle all this don't you?? :)) The effect of every action I did is in my expectation. You said I'm ruining everything in you, yes you're always right but what about my heart?! It can't be mend already, what are you going to do next to make it more worse???
The anger is still there, maybe I'll regret for what happened last night but not right now. It's way better that you unfriend me, since you don't wanna do so, let me do it using your account :)) So you don't have to keep so in touch with me. Don't have to get so worry and angry about me. And soon you will forget about me as you don't need a friend like this. I don't qualify to be your gf then why will I be qualified to be your friend?!
I closed my laptop at 4am, you want to say that I online fb till 5am. Hahaha, that time I'm very mad searching the message that contain your password in our fb chat, you said I can sacrifice for fb but not for you?! Yes, no reason for that action, yesterday till now already make me out of my mind. All this made me unlike a girl right?! You honestly think I could handle all this don't you?? :)) The effect of every action I did is in my expectation. You said I'm ruining everything in you, yes you're always right but what about my heart?! It can't be mend already, what are you going to do next to make it more worse???
The anger is still there, maybe I'll regret for what happened last night but not right now. It's way better that you unfriend me, since you don't wanna do so, let me do it using your account :)) So you don't have to keep so in touch with me. Don't have to get so worry and angry about me. And soon you will forget about me as you don't need a friend like this. I don't qualify to be your gf then why will I be qualified to be your friend?!
ws D':
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
........
12/9 (Mon)
Yea, before you end the chat tonight you said you're going to block me. Thanks to myself but I think I removed you as friend before you did that *Whatever == Maybe the most correct thing you ever did in life is, DUMP me and/or don't keep in touch with me... This action you made just showed me that how mean I'm to you, how not satisfy you are with me, etc... So tell me, the conclusion is I'm the fault we'll end up like this isn't it?? All this's just so great :')
I'll always remember this's the way you want me back... What happened before, during and after my examination week I don't want to say. It all will happen because of me, thank you! Well about my grades thingy, I can only say: I really don't expect myself to score nice :C Maybe I deserved all this, hahaha. Before that, you finally "willingly" gave me the time I want to think and decide with no more forcing. What's with the rush I don't understand?!
I've tried to change for you but what I get?! I still sense disappointment from you. It feels like I din't pay any effort at all in getting back you. Never mind, you've already blocked me. In your last fb chat with me, you said you're giving me eternal time to consider, means I don't have to consider at all. Terrific! Move on like you always wanted to, I'm just an obstacle in your life. Have already stopped you not intently for a few times, so now I won't and shouldn't be the reason you stay here like an idiot for me anymore.
Thanks for everything you gifted to me, the time, the presents, those worries and more. I don't think you'll wanna see this either, hahahaa. I don't suit you as I'm undeserved, thanks for being that tolerable to a mean girl like me. Being with you is not wrong, kinda the matter of time?! Or maybe I shouldn't agree to be with you at the 1st place, lols :')
P/S: My dark circles and eye bags are getting more and more serious, haizzz :S
Yea, before you end the chat tonight you said you're going to block me. Thanks to myself but I think I removed you as friend before you did that *Whatever == Maybe the most correct thing you ever did in life is, DUMP me and/or don't keep in touch with me... This action you made just showed me that how mean I'm to you, how not satisfy you are with me, etc... So tell me, the conclusion is I'm the fault we'll end up like this isn't it?? All this's just so great :')
I'll always remember this's the way you want me back... What happened before, during and after my examination week I don't want to say. It all will happen because of me, thank you! Well about my grades thingy, I can only say: I really don't expect myself to score nice :C Maybe I deserved all this, hahaha. Before that, you finally "willingly" gave me the time I want to think and decide with no more forcing. What's with the rush I don't understand?!
I've tried to change for you but what I get?! I still sense disappointment from you. It feels like I din't pay any effort at all in getting back you. Never mind, you've already blocked me. In your last fb chat with me, you said you're giving me eternal time to consider, means I don't have to consider at all. Terrific! Move on like you always wanted to, I'm just an obstacle in your life. Have already stopped you not intently for a few times, so now I won't and shouldn't be the reason you stay here like an idiot for me anymore.
Thanks for everything you gifted to me, the time, the presents, those worries and more. I don't think you'll wanna see this either, hahahaa. I don't suit you as I'm undeserved, thanks for being that tolerable to a mean girl like me. Being with you is not wrong, kinda the matter of time?! Or maybe I shouldn't agree to be with you at the 1st place, lols :')
P/S: My dark circles and eye bags are getting more and more serious, haizzz :S
WS ;C
Thursday, September 01, 2011
:(
1/9 (Thurs)
I felt like crying but I can't, I'm tired of hiding my sad feelings but I really can't do anything but to pretend that I'm okay. I'm currently in my Ipoh home so that's why. Had the last outing this afternoon before I have my exam next week, not that enjoyable because mood was spoiled *thanks to him :S And the Cantonese movie I watched with them was funny, kinda likey. Wonder when can I see them again especially those who are studying in other places, just felt sorry that they have to see me in trouble and moody like this.
I wonder why he can't wait till both of our emotion is more stable then settle our problem?! I really don't want to end like this and I'm afraid that I might regret. I need time freaking badly but he just insist on ending this thingy with me. Okay, just be it. I knew there's nothing else I can do to make him change his mind anymore. I really have no idea why my digi number so fast out of credit, he don't believe. Fine :( I just knew I'm so gonna get scold again this month when the coming phone bill arrived. I always hope I'm using prepaid but I'm not...
I'm freaking sad and angry that time after I viewed the fb message he sent me.. So just admit it: I'm mean, selfish and suck. All this make me a bad gf wanting her bf to wait and wait and wait like an idiot. Go ahead, please hate me!! Frankly, I really don't know what I really wanted at this moment. Why he has to be that rush?! Fine, it's not important anymore. He's mad and he said no more friend from now on. He wished it that way so I granted him. Okay, so I removed him from my fb friend list..
How can I forget that I'm freaking mad just now, I need to control my tears as I'm at my dining hall online-ing. Haizz, I just hope I won't regret even though I know I would some how. This's what I deserved, finally a "happy" the end. Great! A simple yet loving relationship that I once wished to have, the hope in me is gone. I'm so so so moody, I need to start studying though the study mood's not there. I just got strong feel that my final exam might get screw some how :(
I felt like crying but I can't, I'm tired of hiding my sad feelings but I really can't do anything but to pretend that I'm okay. I'm currently in my Ipoh home so that's why. Had the last outing this afternoon before I have my exam next week, not that enjoyable because mood was spoiled *thanks to him :S And the Cantonese movie I watched with them was funny, kinda likey. Wonder when can I see them again especially those who are studying in other places, just felt sorry that they have to see me in trouble and moody like this.
I wonder why he can't wait till both of our emotion is more stable then settle our problem?! I really don't want to end like this and I'm afraid that I might regret. I need time freaking badly but he just insist on ending this thingy with me. Okay, just be it. I knew there's nothing else I can do to make him change his mind anymore. I really have no idea why my digi number so fast out of credit, he don't believe. Fine :( I just knew I'm so gonna get scold again this month when the coming phone bill arrived. I always hope I'm using prepaid but I'm not...
I'm freaking sad and angry that time after I viewed the fb message he sent me.. So just admit it: I'm mean, selfish and suck. All this make me a bad gf wanting her bf to wait and wait and wait like an idiot. Go ahead, please hate me!! Frankly, I really don't know what I really wanted at this moment. Why he has to be that rush?! Fine, it's not important anymore. He's mad and he said no more friend from now on. He wished it that way so I granted him. Okay, so I removed him from my fb friend list..
How can I forget that I'm freaking mad just now, I need to control my tears as I'm at my dining hall online-ing. Haizz, I just hope I won't regret even though I know I would some how. This's what I deserved, finally a "happy" the end. Great! A simple yet loving relationship that I once wished to have, the hope in me is gone. I'm so so so moody, I need to start studying though the study mood's not there. I just got strong feel that my final exam might get screw some how :(
WS :'(
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
The end...
30/8 (Tues)
I need to write it out no matter what!! Don't blame me for ignoring you as you should know I would treat you like this. Don't you think the condition's awkward?! From bf downgrade to friend, you expect me to treat you like how I treat my friends?! You're too naive, I need time freaking badly to accept the changes in our relationship lo!! I already blocked you from viewing my wall, I won't remove you from my friend list. I still can handle it... Ishh, it's just so not my day. FML!! :S
Haizzz, things between us dint run smooth, we quarrel like once a week. You're the 1st guy that made me cried that much. You always gave me the feel like I'm a bad gf, or maybe I am :'( I'm laying my trust on you but why I don't feel that you're doing the same on me?? You always know I need private time for myself. You knew I can't accept your phone call that publicly when I'm in my Ipoh home. You cared and you said it will be fine soon, but why you sounds like you're accepting it unwillingly??
You failed to lie me, so just admit it: I can't satisfy your needs!! You know I can't always text you, even I got another sim card, but it's not that convenient. Erghh, I really dislike the phone bill issue!! This month it's over again, and my mum's mumbling about that again == Fine, there won't be any chance my phone bill will exceed that much again. Never :@ Or maybe I'm too greedy, I'm like expecting you to understand my condition. But you dint, even you did, you're still not happy about what I did that made you worried.
Got an outing with my buddies this afternoon and they woke me up some how: you're so not my type after all. They're indeed questioned by my choice, as they understand me too much!! *My ideal bf is always the SMZ type :O That time I'm really doubting should I voice out to let it calm 1st and let us figure out whether we should continue or not. If you're around, I'll really feel uncomfortable when I'm with my friends. I really need to have a girly talk with them...
I knew you're mad, you kept on calling me to know my stuff, then finally I received your text telling me your request to be friends 'cause you can't stand with me anymore. Which means you don't want me anymore, you don't love me anymore, all those things that we experience together ain't important to you anymore. Okay, great!! I totally respect your choice. I gave you mostly everything and this's the ending I got. You're abandoning me :(( Well, I'm glad that I dint cry that time and I still can firm myself up to go to work :X
I don't think I got the courage to reject them as I already promise them to come to work on the Merdeka public holiday because of you. I felt unproductive, kinda useless and my legs are arching but luckily I din't break anything. Can I suddenly tell them I'm sick and I can't come to help them the next day?? I really need time, I'm really not okay but I need to pretend that I'm okay. That's me, I just don't like the feel of making people worry about me.
Whatever it's, it's over for the last time. I'm reluctant that we have to end this way that quickly but I have to. Yea, I'm crying for you for the last time also. Maybe this is the better way for the both of us... And maybe being with me it's a huge mistake that you have ever made!! Please leave me alone, I'm alright. I deserved nothing....
P/S: Gossh, I really need to study hard for my final already. I can feel the pressure already. Stop being lackadaisical ahh, I need my study mood now!!! :C
I need to write it out no matter what!! Don't blame me for ignoring you as you should know I would treat you like this. Don't you think the condition's awkward?! From bf downgrade to friend, you expect me to treat you like how I treat my friends?! You're too naive, I need time freaking badly to accept the changes in our relationship lo!! I already blocked you from viewing my wall, I won't remove you from my friend list. I still can handle it... Ishh, it's just so not my day. FML!! :S
Haizzz, things between us dint run smooth, we quarrel like once a week. You're the 1st guy that made me cried that much. You always gave me the feel like I'm a bad gf, or maybe I am :'( I'm laying my trust on you but why I don't feel that you're doing the same on me?? You always know I need private time for myself. You knew I can't accept your phone call that publicly when I'm in my Ipoh home. You cared and you said it will be fine soon, but why you sounds like you're accepting it unwillingly??
You failed to lie me, so just admit it: I can't satisfy your needs!! You know I can't always text you, even I got another sim card, but it's not that convenient. Erghh, I really dislike the phone bill issue!! This month it's over again, and my mum's mumbling about that again == Fine, there won't be any chance my phone bill will exceed that much again. Never :@ Or maybe I'm too greedy, I'm like expecting you to understand my condition. But you dint, even you did, you're still not happy about what I did that made you worried.
Got an outing with my buddies this afternoon and they woke me up some how: you're so not my type after all. They're indeed questioned by my choice, as they understand me too much!! *My ideal bf is always the SMZ type :O That time I'm really doubting should I voice out to let it calm 1st and let us figure out whether we should continue or not. If you're around, I'll really feel uncomfortable when I'm with my friends. I really need to have a girly talk with them...
I knew you're mad, you kept on calling me to know my stuff, then finally I received your text telling me your request to be friends 'cause you can't stand with me anymore. Which means you don't want me anymore, you don't love me anymore, all those things that we experience together ain't important to you anymore. Okay, great!! I totally respect your choice. I gave you mostly everything and this's the ending I got. You're abandoning me :(( Well, I'm glad that I dint cry that time and I still can firm myself up to go to work :X
I don't think I got the courage to reject them as I already promise them to come to work on the Merdeka public holiday because of you. I felt unproductive, kinda useless and my legs are arching but luckily I din't break anything. Can I suddenly tell them I'm sick and I can't come to help them the next day?? I really need time, I'm really not okay but I need to pretend that I'm okay. That's me, I just don't like the feel of making people worry about me.
Whatever it's, it's over for the last time. I'm reluctant that we have to end this way that quickly but I have to. Yea, I'm crying for you for the last time also. Maybe this is the better way for the both of us... And maybe being with me it's a huge mistake that you have ever made!! Please leave me alone, I'm alright. I deserved nothing....
P/S: Gossh, I really need to study hard for my final already. I can feel the pressure already. Stop being lackadaisical ahh, I need my study mood now!!! :C
WS :'(
Monday, August 08, 2011
Finally!!
8/8 (Mon)
Yea, finally I found the good time and nice mood for blogging :) I think I've abandoned here for a few weeks, so sorry :S I already change back to my old playlist, but that time the line so freaking suck and I'm a bit tired so I dint update any post... Last few weeks been quite busy with tests, assignments, presentations and maintaining something, erghhh ==
Just hope the mark I get for my tests ain't that terrible, so I don't have to repeat any fail subjects in semester 4. Now left 1 presentation only, gotta make it works!! :D Then final exam's around the corner, have to do some revision as soon as possible. I feel like I'm getting more and more lazy, 'cause last week I've skipped 2 classes already. Haizzz, fine.. No matter what, I must be hard working for my revision, yea I'll C:
About the maintaining something, it's about the relationship thingy. Which I wanna keep it low-profile, hahaa :D It can't be true if I said there's no problem between me and him. I know there are moments that I might doubt, wondering is he the one suitable for me?? Well, the best way I can think of is to let time decide and tell me the answer anyway. Now just enjoy the time being together is what important for now ;)
P/S: Nothing in you change, except the part that you'll ignore me some how. You felt that I'm busy with my uni-life?! Well, the fact's I won't ignore you no matter how busy I'm. *to the previous you
Yea, finally I found the good time and nice mood for blogging :) I think I've abandoned here for a few weeks, so sorry :S I already change back to my old playlist, but that time the line so freaking suck and I'm a bit tired so I dint update any post... Last few weeks been quite busy with tests, assignments, presentations and maintaining something, erghhh ==
Just hope the mark I get for my tests ain't that terrible, so I don't have to repeat any fail subjects in semester 4. Now left 1 presentation only, gotta make it works!! :D Then final exam's around the corner, have to do some revision as soon as possible. I feel like I'm getting more and more lazy, 'cause last week I've skipped 2 classes already. Haizzz, fine.. No matter what, I must be hard working for my revision, yea I'll C:
About the maintaining something, it's about the relationship thingy. Which I wanna keep it low-profile, hahaa :D It can't be true if I said there's no problem between me and him. I know there are moments that I might doubt, wondering is he the one suitable for me?? Well, the best way I can think of is to let time decide and tell me the answer anyway. Now just enjoy the time being together is what important for now ;)
P/S: Nothing in you change, except the part that you'll ignore me some how. You felt that I'm busy with my uni-life?! Well, the fact's I won't ignore you no matter how busy I'm. *to the previous you
WS :)
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Not studying :X
19/7 (Tue)
Finally my 1st ever presentation in my university life is over!! I'm wearing Indian clothes, lols == Photos taken were not at my phone, so I'm waiting my friends to upload now :D The damn Sociology test today is over as well, I'm really glad I know how to answer as we got a moderate-okay paper~ :) Zombie look now, don't ask me why.. 'Cause this few days my attention is disturbed by my personal thingy :X
Actually I really felt great about the 1st time experience on last Friday night but what happened that night eventually did made some of us get hurt. Haizz, HY is starting to wonder maybe we shouldn't carry out that outing at the 1st place. Fine, this won't stop me from knowing the answer also == No doubts, it really freaked me up. How can I accept something like that in a short time???
Why all this have to happen while I'm having my mid-term test this week.. It's freaking stressful okay?? Lucky I changed my strategy, if not my Sociology test sure will GG :S I know something I said made you felt hurt, I know I'm mean. But frankly I'm not even 18, to me having a bf doesn't mean I've to be with that guy forever and marry that guy in future. To get into those stages need a lot of love, trust, patience and everything significant in a relationship...
Fine, maybe in the end.. Like what I sensed, I'll just screw up everything... ILY but I'm sorry that facing this awkward situation really make me have this kind of feelings :(
Finally my 1st ever presentation in my university life is over!! I'm wearing Indian clothes, lols == Photos taken were not at my phone, so I'm waiting my friends to upload now :D The damn Sociology test today is over as well, I'm really glad I know how to answer as we got a moderate-okay paper~ :) Zombie look now, don't ask me why.. 'Cause this few days my attention is disturbed by my personal thingy :X
Actually I really felt great about the 1st time experience on last Friday night but what happened that night eventually did made some of us get hurt. Haizz, HY is starting to wonder maybe we shouldn't carry out that outing at the 1st place. Fine, this won't stop me from knowing the answer also == No doubts, it really freaked me up. How can I accept something like that in a short time???
Why all this have to happen while I'm having my mid-term test this week.. It's freaking stressful okay?? Lucky I changed my strategy, if not my Sociology test sure will GG :S I know something I said made you felt hurt, I know I'm mean. But frankly I'm not even 18, to me having a bf doesn't mean I've to be with that guy forever and marry that guy in future. To get into those stages need a lot of love, trust, patience and everything significant in a relationship...
Fine, maybe in the end.. Like what I sensed, I'll just screw up everything... ILY but I'm sorry that facing this awkward situation really make me have this kind of feelings :(
WS :C
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Busy like HELL @@
13/7 (Wed)
Actually I felt like blogging on Monday, but I was quite busy this few days. Sociology assignment is making my head big. No offence but I really got bad feeling about our group presentation, 'cause till now we haven't even do that power point slide. I really dislike last minute work but what to do when you don't even know whether those stuff you're doing is right or wrong. Next week need to present and then got 3 tests awaiting me, just pray hard for me la.....
Radio play script we finally finished yesterday but still need to modify, then tonight gotta print it out and let our tutor check. Let's hope that it's interesting enough, we could have do it last week when we're more free lo == Thanks to someone for providing me an idea but sadly I don't think it will work :S Exam's tomorrow evening. Goshh, I'm so unprepared. SHIT!! :(
I really doubted my choice once, expecting that I'll regret soon. It's strange that I found myself don't wanna wake up from this dream you got me into :) I know I'm kinda mean sometimes but I'm willing to change. Understanding each other will take time, it always do. Something in me hope you're the one though the future's just so unsure.
To someone: Please don't exceed the limit I can endure, I dare you.. You'll regret what I'll do to you...
Actually I felt like blogging on Monday, but I was quite busy this few days. Sociology assignment is making my head big. No offence but I really got bad feeling about our group presentation, 'cause till now we haven't even do that power point slide. I really dislike last minute work but what to do when you don't even know whether those stuff you're doing is right or wrong. Next week need to present and then got 3 tests awaiting me, just pray hard for me la.....
Radio play script we finally finished yesterday but still need to modify, then tonight gotta print it out and let our tutor check. Let's hope that it's interesting enough, we could have do it last week when we're more free lo == Thanks to someone for providing me an idea but sadly I don't think it will work :S Exam's tomorrow evening. Goshh, I'm so unprepared. SHIT!! :(
I really doubted my choice once, expecting that I'll regret soon. It's strange that I found myself don't wanna wake up from this dream you got me into :) I know I'm kinda mean sometimes but I'm willing to change. Understanding each other will take time, it always do. Something in me hope you're the one though the future's just so unsure.
To someone: Please don't exceed the limit I can endure, I dare you.. You'll regret what I'll do to you...
WS :X
Saturday, July 02, 2011
My weekend ;)
2/7 (Sat)
Yea, the answer I got was quite unexpected. My sense was half right half wrong :S I really treat both of them as friends, but I don't know why in the end it turned out to be... Erghh, can I just skip that?? Thanks to those deary friends who know part of this fishy thingy, thanks for understanding me. I heart it ♥ This thingy just made me wanna update my blog more, 3rd time in the same week already!! LOLs XD
I'll write something here when I got the mood to do so. Maybe I'm in a trouble, or I can't seem to figure out something. I could sense things easily *sometimes I'll just predict the expected outcomes inside me :P Or maybe I'm moody, helpless, etc.. But believe me, after writing it out, surely I'm okay. It's my life, life ain't easy but I gotta live it through no matter how. I know mostly I'm more to a negative person, but this's the real side of me you're seeing.
The answer I think I'll just keep to myself, as this issue had come to an end... Let's just say I won't ignore the innocent person. This issue let me realise the power of jealousy, so freaking strong. *Erghh, I know you're seeing. Now the person I'm awkward to face is YOU!!! :S I'm juat kinda glad that I'm not working there anymore, if not the weird situation there... I don't even dare to imagine what would happen @@
Today's the best weekend I ever had, shopping >< Girls will only complaint their closets are not big enough, not the clothes they owned are too many. LOL, so true.. XD Sales are everywhere, and I'm always more to branded, as to me those stuffs are more lasting. Thanks to my dear ATM mum which is now free on weekends!!! She's the one paying for my clothings. I still need to become slimmer lo, I wanna buy some shorts and pants :P
Then tonight, movie time: Transformer: Dark of the Moon, about 2 hours and 30 minutes+ I'm in the cinema. Freaking cold inside :@ Something's wrong about the projector thingy with the hidden and REAL reason, we couldn't watch the movie in 3D so they refund the tickets for us. But we got the chance to enjoy free movie, popcorn and drinks, hahahaa :D Can I say it's lucky?! Though I don't really likey the ending, but the scene of robot fighting is really worthy :)
Then tonight, movie time: Transformer: Dark of the Moon, about 2 hours and 30 minutes+ I'm in the cinema. Freaking cold inside :@ Something's wrong about the projector thingy with the hidden and REAL reason, we couldn't watch the movie in 3D so they refund the tickets for us. But we got the chance to enjoy free movie, popcorn and drinks, hahahaa :D Can I say it's lucky?! Though I don't really likey the ending, but the scene of robot fighting is really worthy :)
WS :)
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Truth...?!
29/6 (Wed)
Yes, it's a midnight post again. I'm not studying my previous lecture stuff again. And I'm in front of my laptop and chatting with PL again. She's been so nice to hear my stories, glad she's there. If not, I'll be so freaking emo == Well, 'cause I just ended my Maths test. Screwed the freaking issue that spoiled my mood to study yesterday and my 4-5 marks... Ishh, fine.. It's my own fault, can't blame no one...
I don't care who's lying to me anyway. It's okay, though I still can't accept but I can feel that my emotion's more stable already :) I don't care whether I'm thinking too much or what, the TRUTH ain't that important anymore. The answer would be a YES or NO only, that simple. And I ignored his call just now. Sorry, but I really don't feel like talking to him/ reply to his wall post or anything related to him, after this whole incident. I feel awkward to face him already. Maybe after a week or more 1st, I just need to ignore him at this moment....
Back to something that eventually bright up my day, that's the day I await the most in the whole week except Friday. I superb likey my Wednesday here in Kampar, 'cause that day had been our weekly outing with ZH, lols :D He's the one who fetch us out for dinner that night. Which means I don't have to cycle out for dinner on that particular day, wheee X) Today we had KFC, though I don't really like the fried chicken there. Too oily for me @@ But the cheesy wedges, still is my all-time favourite there.
Seriously I need sunblock badly!!! I don't wanna become that tan, I'm kinda afraid that I can't accept my more and more uneven skin tone :X
Yes, it's a midnight post again. I'm not studying my previous lecture stuff again. And I'm in front of my laptop and chatting with PL again. She's been so nice to hear my stories, glad she's there. If not, I'll be so freaking emo == Well, 'cause I just ended my Maths test. Screwed the freaking issue that spoiled my mood to study yesterday and my 4-5 marks... Ishh, fine.. It's my own fault, can't blame no one...
I don't care who's lying to me anyway. It's okay, though I still can't accept but I can feel that my emotion's more stable already :) I don't care whether I'm thinking too much or what, the TRUTH ain't that important anymore. The answer would be a YES or NO only, that simple. And I ignored his call just now. Sorry, but I really don't feel like talking to him/ reply to his wall post or anything related to him, after this whole incident. I feel awkward to face him already. Maybe after a week or more 1st, I just need to ignore him at this moment....
Back to something that eventually bright up my day, that's the day I await the most in the whole week except Friday. I superb likey my Wednesday here in Kampar, 'cause that day had been our weekly outing with ZH, lols :D He's the one who fetch us out for dinner that night. Which means I don't have to cycle out for dinner on that particular day, wheee X) Today we had KFC, though I don't really like the fried chicken there. Too oily for me @@ But the cheesy wedges, still is my all-time favourite there.
Seriously I need sunblock badly!!! I don't wanna become that tan, I'm kinda afraid that I can't accept my more and more uneven skin tone :X
WS :)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Shocked :X
28/6 (Tues)
I'm not paying full attention to my study again, and a small Maths test is on tomorrow. Ishhh, I'm in front of my laptop as usual. Looking at my lecture and tutorial notes while I online and gaming == 'Cause my mind's influenced by a small but shocked news I knew just now :S Ohh my, I wish it isn't true and SERIOUSLY I really can't accept it lo :X
I sensed it would happen after a casual outing but I was shocked that it really did. OMG, I know all this dint happen in a sudden lo please. Erghh, I'm so disappointed and so damn freaked out by it :( Though I'm sure I don't have much feel on that fellow anymore. But to me, it's like a hilarious joke that happens to me, like always. Every time I confirm that person can be my new aim, but then that guy will eventually do something.. Stuff that will make me wonder, moody, wonder again then finally disappointed with a decision inside my heart, that's give up.
I really dislike this sort of feel. It's suck, I've to accept this fact, control my feeling+emotion well and the hardest part: act like "That's just fine to me, I'm okay with it". But my condition really is still not good, but I've say okay to them and to myself. Like nothing big or shall I say "hurtful" happen before?! So in the end, I'm the one who encounter heartache, lucky me huhh?? No one will pity me at all, no one :S
From last year till now, I had this kind of feel for more than twice or more. I'm locking my heart up, yes I am and I should. I had enough already, I need nothing but time to recover. Maybe lonely's best with me, like it did in the last few years. Well, I'm glad that my sense's still correct when it's about other people *except me == I'm so right about saying that thing about him. 'Cause the thing I suspect's currently in the process already, which really freak me out. But I still wish them the best. I'm just doing my part as a friend, that's all...
P/S: Something's wrong, he's denying that he's in a relationship. And I'm wondering who's lying to me now, it's just so hard to guess.
I'm not paying full attention to my study again, and a small Maths test is on tomorrow. Ishhh, I'm in front of my laptop as usual. Looking at my lecture and tutorial notes while I online and gaming == 'Cause my mind's influenced by a small but shocked news I knew just now :S Ohh my, I wish it isn't true and SERIOUSLY I really can't accept it lo :X
I sensed it would happen after a casual outing but I was shocked that it really did. OMG, I know all this dint happen in a sudden lo please. Erghh, I'm so disappointed and so damn freaked out by it :( Though I'm sure I don't have much feel on that fellow anymore. But to me, it's like a hilarious joke that happens to me, like always. Every time I confirm that person can be my new aim, but then that guy will eventually do something.. Stuff that will make me wonder, moody, wonder again then finally disappointed with a decision inside my heart, that's give up.
I really dislike this sort of feel. It's suck, I've to accept this fact, control my feeling+emotion well and the hardest part: act like "That's just fine to me, I'm okay with it". But my condition really is still not good, but I've say okay to them and to myself. Like nothing big or shall I say "hurtful" happen before?! So in the end, I'm the one who encounter heartache, lucky me huhh?? No one will pity me at all, no one :S
From last year till now, I had this kind of feel for more than twice or more. I'm locking my heart up, yes I am and I should. I had enough already, I need nothing but time to recover. Maybe lonely's best with me, like it did in the last few years. Well, I'm glad that my sense's still correct when it's about other people *except me == I'm so right about saying that thing about him. 'Cause the thing I suspect's currently in the process already, which really freak me out. But I still wish them the best. I'm just doing my part as a friend, that's all...
P/S: Something's wrong, he's denying that he's in a relationship. And I'm wondering who's lying to me now, it's just so hard to guess.
WS :')
Thursday, June 23, 2011
It's Week 4 already :X
23/6 (Thurs)
Finally I feel like updating my blog, or shall I say I at last found the time to do so :P Please don't blame me, university life is tough you know XD And this time I got lots of stuffs to share again, as it's has been about 1 week I din't update... I've been thinking what I should write here since the last post, hahhahaa, well here start my new post :)
Last week after that freaking moody post, I'm okay already. So don't worry about me, I can handle it. Yea, I believe I could :D Ignore the schooling part, and let me skip to my weekends. I likey my last weekends, 'cause I gotta the opportunity to meet my friends!!! Saturday went to parade to hang out and yumcha with my working friends, I miss them so much. Though something unexpected happened, well I'm glad it ended quite well though. Awaiting to meet them soon ><
Then Sunday, it's the annually Star walk. I dint register for it as I dint get the chance to borrow the form from any of my friends to photocopy it, and when I realised the deadline's just a few days, I'm in Kampar studying already. Well, what made me change my mind to attend that walk is obviously my dear PY. I miss chatting with her like before. So that day I woke up early, met her up and walked with her. Same like last year, but this year we really talked non-stop XD Wonder when we'll meet again, and next time I want JC to be there with us. The next outing surely need to wait :S
While walking, met some familiar faces. I've said HI to them la, of course ;) When we finished the walk, we headed to the place for FOC food and drinks. Whee, met a lot of close friends there as well. Have a short conversation with them, but those 2 persons which I wanna meet badly- WL and SM dint attend lo I think. YL, fatty, ZZ and some other ex-classmates, I dint see them too == The best part about that day is I get a certificate for participating though I dint register, lols X)
Ohh gosh, I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw you with a DSLR on Sunday the at the starting line. Duhh I don't mind whether you saw me in the crowd too, I just notice that our fate's quite strong!! Every time I sense that I won't see you again, but the sense turned out to be wrong which make me wanna get over you so soon. I know you can capture nice photos, keep practising. I predict you will become famous with the potential you have 1 day :)
About the new aim thingy I mentioned last post, I think I met a kinda cute guy to let me do so :X But I just don't feel like he's the one for me, I'm way too normal and a bit plump compare to my Form 5 look. So I think "I won't fall for him" is what I wanna tell myself la :@ I'm still trying hard to lose some weight, but I think I'm facing a really huge problem already... When there's nothing much to do in Kampar except eat, sleep, study, cycle, online and yumcha+gossip ==
Finally I feel like updating my blog, or shall I say I at last found the time to do so :P Please don't blame me, university life is tough you know XD And this time I got lots of stuffs to share again, as it's has been about 1 week I din't update... I've been thinking what I should write here since the last post, hahhahaa, well here start my new post :)
Last week after that freaking moody post, I'm okay already. So don't worry about me, I can handle it. Yea, I believe I could :D Ignore the schooling part, and let me skip to my weekends. I likey my last weekends, 'cause I gotta the opportunity to meet my friends!!! Saturday went to parade to hang out and yumcha with my working friends, I miss them so much. Though something unexpected happened, well I'm glad it ended quite well though. Awaiting to meet them soon ><
Then Sunday, it's the annually Star walk. I dint register for it as I dint get the chance to borrow the form from any of my friends to photocopy it, and when I realised the deadline's just a few days, I'm in Kampar studying already. Well, what made me change my mind to attend that walk is obviously my dear PY. I miss chatting with her like before. So that day I woke up early, met her up and walked with her. Same like last year, but this year we really talked non-stop XD Wonder when we'll meet again, and next time I want JC to be there with us. The next outing surely need to wait :S
While walking, met some familiar faces. I've said HI to them la, of course ;) When we finished the walk, we headed to the place for FOC food and drinks. Whee, met a lot of close friends there as well. Have a short conversation with them, but those 2 persons which I wanna meet badly- WL and SM dint attend lo I think. YL, fatty, ZZ and some other ex-classmates, I dint see them too == The best part about that day is I get a certificate for participating though I dint register, lols X)
Ohh gosh, I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw you with a DSLR on Sunday the at the starting line. Duhh I don't mind whether you saw me in the crowd too, I just notice that our fate's quite strong!! Every time I sense that I won't see you again, but the sense turned out to be wrong which make me wanna get over you so soon. I know you can capture nice photos, keep practising. I predict you will become famous with the potential you have 1 day :)
About the new aim thingy I mentioned last post, I think I met a kinda cute guy to let me do so :X But I just don't feel like he's the one for me, I'm way too normal and a bit plump compare to my Form 5 look. So I think "I won't fall for him" is what I wanna tell myself la :@ I'm still trying hard to lose some weight, but I think I'm facing a really huge problem already... When there's nothing much to do in Kampar except eat, sleep, study, cycle, online and yumcha+gossip ==
WS C:
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
FML!!! :'(
14/6 (Tues)
I felt suck and tired. I'm so freaking lazy, my Maths tutorial works should be drawn on graph but I just simply draw it on my paper. And now I felt like heading to bed as my class for tomorrow morning's 8am. Really FTW!!! Just now I got the time to do my work but I just keep on doing my stuff, listening to songs, fb-ing... Erghh, I don't feel like doing anything but EMO, WTF is wrong with me?!
I know maybe is something about you, I think my emotion's quite unstable recently when the topic comes to you. I still care what you did to me, 'cause I really hate the way you treat me!! This feeling's awkward as I don't know what I can do to solve this issue... This thingy keeps making me thought a lot, set me free from it. I just can't stand it anymore.
Damn I feel so helpless :( Erghh, is there a solution?? I always tell myself: A new aim. But I think I'm lack of confidence when come to that, which due to some reasons I don't know how to tell. Haizz, I just got strong feel that I'll remain S&A in Kampar. So no bf, no transport, no NOTHING == And moreover, I think mostly is my own silly personal problem. I knew it!!
I started to sense the stress on me as mid-term test's just a few more weeks to go, so freaking heavy.... And I don't wanna disappoint my parents on the 1st semester, NO WAY I would do that to them!! So I need to do stop using the laptop that often and start to do my revision starting tomorrow onwards @@ Good luck to myself la, I guess :S
I felt suck and tired. I'm so freaking lazy, my Maths tutorial works should be drawn on graph but I just simply draw it on my paper. And now I felt like heading to bed as my class for tomorrow morning's 8am. Really FTW!!! Just now I got the time to do my work but I just keep on doing my stuff, listening to songs, fb-ing... Erghh, I don't feel like doing anything but EMO, WTF is wrong with me?!
I know maybe is something about you, I think my emotion's quite unstable recently when the topic comes to you. I still care what you did to me, 'cause I really hate the way you treat me!! This feeling's awkward as I don't know what I can do to solve this issue... This thingy keeps making me thought a lot, set me free from it. I just can't stand it anymore.
Damn I feel so helpless :( Erghh, is there a solution?? I always tell myself: A new aim. But I think I'm lack of confidence when come to that, which due to some reasons I don't know how to tell. Haizz, I just got strong feel that I'll remain S&A in Kampar. So no bf, no transport, no NOTHING == And moreover, I think mostly is my own silly personal problem. I knew it!!
I started to sense the stress on me as mid-term test's just a few more weeks to go, so freaking heavy.... And I don't wanna disappoint my parents on the 1st semester, NO WAY I would do that to them!! So I need to do stop using the laptop that often and start to do my revision starting tomorrow onwards @@ Good luck to myself la, I guess :S
WS :C
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Not so LUCKY...
10/6 (Fri)
I think someone will be wondering why I write a post so fast again right?! Hahahaa == 'Cause today, which I rated it as a "not-so-lucky" day... My bicycle disappoints me again, when I started to use it. It made my jeans, my handbag and even shirt dirty. 'Cause it have been to the bicycle shop for service, it's that kind of grease dirty la~ So I wasted a piece of cloth to clean it though, which made my hands so damn dirty that day. I cut my nails short because of that ==
Then what happened today was 1 of the paddle of my bicycle fell off, really FTW!!! I was on my way to attend my class la aduhh :'( So I dirtied my hands again to try to fix it back but I failed to. Erghh, so gotta pull my bicycle to a place near the a gate which got a jaga guarding there, locked it there and headed to my lecture hall. Asked for help from the jaga but he couldn't do anything about it though.
I'm so glad Huiyi was there with me, I wanna thank her so much!! And thanks for accompany me when we're heading home from school after class :) Ohh yaa, I skip something important: My lecturer dismissed us early. I don't even need to help those who asked me to help them sign. It's their choices to skip I know, but don't they know they're missing something?? :S And I worried ah Bao the most, 'cause... Fine, I don't wanna talk about it :@
I got 20 minutes+ to pull my bicycle back my Kampar home. Which I reached there by walking + pulling my bicycle at about 6pm+ I'm surprised to know that, PL's bicycle still haven't fix. Her bicycle's chain is down this morning, and this cause her to board a bus to school. The bicycle guy who said he can come on night, suddenly said it's his off today. Well when my dad arrived there, he saved the day. He fixed both of our bicycle, but mine he still need to make the screw tighter X) Love him much ❤
P/S: I can accept it and yes I'll, I think what I'm expecting already is the answer. It's disappointing as always once it's related to you, no wonder I would heartlessly force myself to end this thingy with you. Don't say I'm cruel. 'Cause don't you care about me anymore?! Shouldn't be I don't think so, but should be I don't mind at all C:
I think someone will be wondering why I write a post so fast again right?! Hahahaa == 'Cause today, which I rated it as a "not-so-lucky" day... My bicycle disappoints me again, when I started to use it. It made my jeans, my handbag and even shirt dirty. 'Cause it have been to the bicycle shop for service, it's that kind of grease dirty la~ So I wasted a piece of cloth to clean it though, which made my hands so damn dirty that day. I cut my nails short because of that ==
Then what happened today was 1 of the paddle of my bicycle fell off, really FTW!!! I was on my way to attend my class la aduhh :'( So I dirtied my hands again to try to fix it back but I failed to. Erghh, so gotta pull my bicycle to a place near the a gate which got a jaga guarding there, locked it there and headed to my lecture hall. Asked for help from the jaga but he couldn't do anything about it though.
I'm so glad Huiyi was there with me, I wanna thank her so much!! And thanks for accompany me when we're heading home from school after class :) Ohh yaa, I skip something important: My lecturer dismissed us early. I don't even need to help those who asked me to help them sign. It's their choices to skip I know, but don't they know they're missing something?? :S And I worried ah Bao the most, 'cause... Fine, I don't wanna talk about it :@
I got 20 minutes+ to pull my bicycle back my Kampar home. Which I reached there by walking + pulling my bicycle at about 6pm+ I'm surprised to know that, PL's bicycle still haven't fix. Her bicycle's chain is down this morning, and this cause her to board a bus to school. The bicycle guy who said he can come on night, suddenly said it's his off today. Well when my dad arrived there, he saved the day. He fixed both of our bicycle, but mine he still need to make the screw tighter X) Love him much ❤
P/S: I can accept it and yes I'll, I think what I'm expecting already is the answer. It's disappointing as always once it's related to you, no wonder I would heartlessly force myself to end this thingy with you. Don't say I'm cruel. 'Cause don't you care about me anymore?! Shouldn't be I don't think so, but should be I don't mind at all C:
WS :V
Friday, June 10, 2011
Lazy :@
9/6 (Thursday)
It's a midnight post again, and yes I'm so damn lazy. Lazy to do revision, playing fb every time I switch on my laptop. Lazy to renew my post, lazy to do this and that... Still that "nanti nanti" attitude :S Erghh, I'm not motivated enough!!! I'm starting to worry about the assignments and examination already. I'm tired easily, and I always eat my meals at different time, which is so not good. Would this affect my weight or something?! I'm still trying to lose my weight, which's still yet to lose ==
I need to have some food in stomach before I cycle, to avoid fainting or falling down while I cycle back home. I wonder when will I get used to cycling everyday @@ To me, cycling drains energy easily == Today after my 9am class, I stayed at school due to a group discussion thingy. The last class is 2pm till 4pm, I was yawning in the class. Ohh no, my legs muscles ached already when I cycled home. I'm so glad that I can lay on my comfortable bed, as I'm a little bit afraid my energy can't bring me home.
Then tonight, PL's class ended at 6pm. *Which would be same for me tomorrow, shit timetable :( In the end, due to laziness. We decided not to cycle out for our dinner, and lucky we did that choice. 'Cause I seriously think my legs need some rest. So we ended up calling delivery, well it tasted good anyway X) Freaking tired everyday. Haizzz, when I can adapt the environment here??? :[
P/S: Something I saw made me think that my prediction is wrong again, F*CK :( I nearly can't accept it but I have to. Goshh, I keep on wondering: Don't you still treat me as friend?? I'm so mad at you right now :'(
It's a midnight post again, and yes I'm so damn lazy. Lazy to do revision, playing fb every time I switch on my laptop. Lazy to renew my post, lazy to do this and that... Still that "nanti nanti" attitude :S Erghh, I'm not motivated enough!!! I'm starting to worry about the assignments and examination already. I'm tired easily, and I always eat my meals at different time, which is so not good. Would this affect my weight or something?! I'm still trying to lose my weight, which's still yet to lose ==
I need to have some food in stomach before I cycle, to avoid fainting or falling down while I cycle back home. I wonder when will I get used to cycling everyday @@ To me, cycling drains energy easily == Today after my 9am class, I stayed at school due to a group discussion thingy. The last class is 2pm till 4pm, I was yawning in the class. Ohh no, my legs muscles ached already when I cycled home. I'm so glad that I can lay on my comfortable bed, as I'm a little bit afraid my energy can't bring me home.
Then tonight, PL's class ended at 6pm. *Which would be same for me tomorrow, shit timetable :( In the end, due to laziness. We decided not to cycle out for our dinner, and lucky we did that choice. 'Cause I seriously think my legs need some rest. So we ended up calling delivery, well it tasted good anyway X) Freaking tired everyday. Haizzz, when I can adapt the environment here??? :[
P/S: Something I saw made me think that my prediction is wrong again, F*CK :( I nearly can't accept it but I have to. Goshh, I keep on wondering: Don't you still treat me as friend?? I'm so mad at you right now :'(
WS :C
Sunday, June 05, 2011
I'm TANNED :(
4/6 (Sat)
I'm freaking sad about my skin tone right now, normal lotion's not that helpful in this stage already. Erghh, I need SUNBLOCK and more suitable clothes!!! 1 of my jeans is too big for me, makes me looks fat. I'm just moderate la, and I'm trying to lose weight now :) I want long pants and long shelves shirts!! But my mum isn't free to bring me go for shopping, due to her works. Like tonight.. me with my brother and father went to watch X-men 1st class, she's staying home doing her stuff.
Ohh yaa, yesterday my dad came Kampar to fetch me home. He reached there quite late as he told me there's a serious jamming near Simpang Pulai there. Well, actually is that shit lecturer which is so "KIND" to let us left the lecture hall about 25 minutes early. Which allows me to reach my Kampar home before 6pm. I'm so so so impressed: He taught us nothing in that so-called 1 hour lesson. He just asked who's not clear in which part. He kept on looking at his watch and even taking out his phone to send text or something. =3=
Then he said he needed to leave early and explained that he's in a hurry to fetch someone, which I think is his important so-and-so la~ Lucky he's just a replacement lecturer and he's not my tutor for my Economics class. If not, I think I'll announce myself as death in that subject :@ Bao's just same lecture class with me only. But Huiyi which I knew her in my primary school BM tuition, is same group with me!! Hehee, I got accompany in my every class 'cause my timetable is same with hers :)
I still haven't really know much new friends there, just started to really chat with a few new faces in my Basic English class. Try to recognise their faces starting from now already, LOLs :P I've noticed that she's paying attention to my present in class as well, if I'm not wrong. And I'm glad that I've chosen to add her up in fb. She's same group with me, like what I've expected. Next Monday gotta try to have a simple conversation with her before class starts, try not to be that awkward I guess?!
I'm freaking sad about my skin tone right now, normal lotion's not that helpful in this stage already. Erghh, I need SUNBLOCK and more suitable clothes!!! 1 of my jeans is too big for me, makes me looks fat. I'm just moderate la, and I'm trying to lose weight now :) I want long pants and long shelves shirts!! But my mum isn't free to bring me go for shopping, due to her works. Like tonight.. me with my brother and father went to watch X-men 1st class, she's staying home doing her stuff.
Ohh yaa, yesterday my dad came Kampar to fetch me home. He reached there quite late as he told me there's a serious jamming near Simpang Pulai there. Well, actually is that shit lecturer which is so "KIND" to let us left the lecture hall about 25 minutes early. Which allows me to reach my Kampar home before 6pm. I'm so so so impressed: He taught us nothing in that so-called 1 hour lesson. He just asked who's not clear in which part. He kept on looking at his watch and even taking out his phone to send text or something. =3=
Then he said he needed to leave early and explained that he's in a hurry to fetch someone, which I think is his important so-and-so la~ Lucky he's just a replacement lecturer and he's not my tutor for my Economics class. If not, I think I'll announce myself as death in that subject :@ Bao's just same lecture class with me only. But Huiyi which I knew her in my primary school BM tuition, is same group with me!! Hehee, I got accompany in my every class 'cause my timetable is same with hers :)
I still haven't really know much new friends there, just started to really chat with a few new faces in my Basic English class. Try to recognise their faces starting from now already, LOLs :P I've noticed that she's paying attention to my present in class as well, if I'm not wrong. And I'm glad that I've chosen to add her up in fb. She's same group with me, like what I've expected. Next Monday gotta try to have a simple conversation with her before class starts, try not to be that awkward I guess?!
WS ;)
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