Update :DD

26/4 (Tues)

Opsss, it's like weeks I dint write something here. I did stopped my previous job but now I'm helping my mum at her office now. Well, because my mum said I really need a healthier lifestyle like sleep early which I wouldn't do that while I was still working there. 'Cause I was using the time I'm at home to online but sadly morning I'm at my grandparents' house, so she wants my timetable to become normal again.

Sunday... It should be a splendid evening with 4 of my working friends at YE as we planned to have dinner there, but something not good happened still :( Don't know why that sucker which I don't really like, came to say hi to us..... Ohh please, don't spoil my mood and appetite. So I asked him to go away 'cause I don't wanna see him. And that night was okay with some photos and teasing jokes my male supervisors K and W made about me and him *hahaha, it's not funny at all ==

They treated each of us a single scoop ice-cream and a slice of cake, love them!! >< Back to the main topic, that sucker == Yesterday M called me with a shocking news which is, that sucker wanna hit me when I said something like that to him, and she specially sign in fb to know whether I'm asleep or not~ the childish K said it's not his fault and begged me to apologize him or that sucker?! Weird == Ermm... in my head, I just think he's so SENSELESS, 'cause the signal is so obvious>> I don't like you, no matter as a friend or other relationships. But I just don't think a blur guy like him could get it.

My mum was worried when she heard something like that, she scolded me for causing a hatred issue at my work place. At 1st, she was angry when she knew I said: I'm not afraid of getting involve in a fight, so if he dare to punch me he'll get it back!! I was furious that she don't support me at all. That freak is a weird guy, don't she understand why I did that to him?! :( But when my mum asked me: Are you afraid of getting hit since you're going back there this Saturday and Sunday?? I answered her NO *Obviously ;) 

She told me something so freaking true about the community nowadays and said the people are strange, they might do crazy stuffs if you provoke them. I understand she's worried about me for the future if I ever meet that sucker, I just promised her I won't hit a single person that day. I think she just hope my attitude would change some how.. Hmmm, whatever. I don't know what I'll encounter when I meet that sucker this coming Saturday.. May God bless me :S

WS :)

我还okayy :]

14/4 (Thurs)

来篇华语的吧~ 有些事用母语写会比较贴切 ;)
工作那里有几位人兄 真是有够过分的
他们就是"蛇"王1号和"蛇"王2号....
跟到他们一起做工 该算我三生有幸吧?!  :'(
以后若在某地方遇到他们 我肯定我是不会主动打招呼的!!!

1号来了整一个月 都还没入状况似的
最近有些新人来 他还好意思在那边自以为很厉害 show off
其实他连自己都搞不定 真是悲剧啊
就如M说的: 他每天都像个新人 @@
而他做过的SH事就别提了 因为实在是不少
最气人的是 他抹的碗碟讲了多少次 还是非常地不干
唉~ 总之说到他 就是无尽的失望 不要给我添麻烦就是了

2号呢 简直就是1号的翻版
我发觉 他和1号一样 吃东西最厉害罢了~
前几天他才把我给炸到 因为他连基本的几句英文都不会
还不知做么要我去帮他order 真是OMG =.=
铁定是 那个该死的1号跟他说过什么来
幸好2号的女友比他们好一些 人比较醒目
比较快上手 还时常帮她男友收拾惨剧
不过好心这样娘的男友 就飞了他吧
看见自己的女友的手拿满杯 还硬要塞东西给人家

所以平时 我跟他们没什么好话说
也幸好那个1号知道我们不喜欢他了 就是不知原因
活该 怪自己不醒目吧
还好多5天 我就要离开那里了 =3=
不然我忍不到他们的一天会来临
到时别怪我跟他们开战咯 :X


P/S: 刚刚看到你的relationship status又换了
我接受的来 只是距离上次好像没多久罢了
怎么酱快的?? 也对 我没资格过问
因为问题在于: 你还有把我当朋友吗??

An unwanted Incident :S

12/4 (Tues)

A bit bored, so feel like writing something here again :) Finally the hostel problem's solved, I'm so glad. Thanks to PL and her dad so much!! >< If not, I think the 3 of us (including SW) will be living at somewhere which we don't like and maybe expensive @@ Ohh my, speaking of her I was quite angry at the beginning. She booked me to share Beijing double sharing at the 1st place but when I got a cheaper price from private renting, she said she wants Beijing single room 'cause more privacy but still same floor with me. 

I was like WTH!! Don't book me at the 1st place la please :( Does she know that it sounded like abandoning?! Okay, that's fine. Though I'm not so pleased about that, but as a friend I'll still helped her asked about the things she want. And I asked PL if she wanna share a Beijing double room with me, since she haven't find her dream room. Then frankly I wasted a lot of money calling here and there, my phone expenses for this month more than rm60 lo :S

But we don't have much choice for private renting as the price are cheaper so those nice rooms are out!! So in the end, PL said why don't we go for Danish's Cambridge 'cause the price are quite similar and it's new. And my mum suggested that since we're still new, go for Danish is more better lo, if you wanna complaint also it'll be more convenient. I did called SW to inform her that, but she dint pick up my call. So I sent a text telling her our decision and stuff. She just replied she's having car lesson chat later, well I don't blame her. But why don't she find me after that?!

I don't wanna waste anymore money on calling, my parents would've kill me about the phone bill!! Lucky my mum said she forgave me T.T So I've been wanting to find her in fb chat since that day after I get home from work like usual, but it's strange that she's not online == I really felt that she's like not nervous about the hostel thing but I thought she should've understand my situation?! Finally I met her at there and told her the thing, but she's so lost and speechless because of my shocking news. So at that short time, she decided to have the smaller room but still same floor with us. 

Well that day PL called Danish there also not quite successful at the beginning. The Cambridge room we wanted is not available. And frankly I don't need room that big == When there's no choice, PL suggested to ask for Tsing Hua double room. As the price's quite okay, and indeed I can say we're so lucky that it's still available. Ohh yes, we booked a 1st floor double room successfully :DD But SW, I've abandoned her this time. PL tried her best to help her ask already, but there isn't any available same floor single room for her :S

To inform her again, I gotta called her and told her all those things that would let her more speechless. Ohh great, her phone's out of credit and she tole me: she ignored her friend that kept on inviting her to live together. Just because she thought I still want that private. So it's like I really abandoned her to solve the hostel thing herself and yea I think she's really angry at me. 'Cause she dint even reply my apologize wall post. Well I'm really so sorry for what happened, I hope she'll understand and that's all...

WS :|

With friends + Some thoughts....

8/4 (Fri)

Yesterday was SW's birthday, so we helped her to celebrate and the venue's at Parade again =3= Ohh yeah, the cake's a Mango Mouse Cake and it's nice but a bit too sweet. I bought her a pencil case and shared the money with PL. Hope she'll like the present :)) As we got nothing to do after we ate the cake, so we went to sing K as plan. I really think it's a good way to release my sadness, I enjoyed it though I'm quite tired @@

Unexpectedly when it's about time I left K-box, my mum called. She's coming to fetch me because of heavy rain, so WL who's going home by bus and the remaining there, accompanied me to the front door of parade. I took the chance and told her that "awesome" news that hurt me badly. She asked something about the girl, which I don't really know also. So I just answered her what I knew, and she asked me did I express it out to you?!

Ohh dear!! Don't tell me you don't know my feelings, 'cause I told you twice and I think it's quite obvious :S Is that possible that you think I'm joking?! Or is it like what another SW told me, you think I don't dare to love you. Or you've mistaken, 'cause I told myself I need you as I'm treating you as my rely...But it's so untrue, 'cause after SMZ you're the only 1....Ohh damnit!! Whatever it is, I need to stop all this stupid guessing in my head :(

Maybe this's what happened when I don't want to find you so frequent like before as I hate disappointments from you.... Then my mum arrived there, and I promised WL that I'll tell her the whole details on our next outings. *WL, I ♥ you!!! I remembered she said this to me: Maybe it's just friendship love between us. But I really can feel there's something between us, 'cause my feelings hardly ever wrong. Ohh goshh, now got 1 condition I'm quite afraid to face, that's meeting you with her somewhere. Haizzz, I really don't know how I'll react... FMY :(

I think I won't write about you in my blog anymore, well just in case. 'Cause I don't want unnecessary misunderstandings @@ I ought to accept the fact that you're not available and give up my feelings on you no matter how :| Now just let God decide what's left to me, or maybe He's telling me that single suits me most?! Frankly I don't know... :'(

To a friend: Your sudden decision really made me disappointed. What you did today made my opinion about you changed, please don't blame me :S

WS :|

It's gone!!

5/4 (Tue)

Knew something I don't think I wanna know at all: you're in a relationship, and yes that girl ain't me :( I can't cry, I just feel so damn down. I don't know what's wrong with me.... I already told myself to get over you but I don't think that happen successfully, 'cause sometimes you're in my mind somehow. Something in me chooses to remain waiting for you, and yet finally this's the answer I get.

What I seen just now just made my heart broken, yeah you did it. All this while I was the one thinking too much, and it serves me right huhh?? Just feel like every time I like someone, that someone won't belong to me in the end. My dear SM's right, ohh I knew it... PY, we're on the same boat now. Can I hug you and lets cry together??? :S

I'm not saying like I regretted liking you, I'm just superb upset that how can you treat me like this??? Why don't you reject me in the beginning, do you have any idea that it seems like hope to me??? I've been torturing all this while to wait for your answer, but all I get is endless disappointments. Till I don't dare to find you 'cause I hate disappointment especially from you. But I think I should know all this would happen earlier, you don't even spare out your precious time for me as a friend....

Maybe this's what you did that you want me to forget about this feelings..... I don't know, I'm so lost now. Once you're so meaningful for me, but now I don't think I got the courage to bother your life anymore. I won't find you in chat box anymore, I'll try not to view your profile, I would try to mention about you lesser, and the most important: I won't miss you anymore :'( I think it's fake so I won't bless you openly, but I'll bless you with her in my heart.

P/S: Thanks to some friends who knew what happened. And sorry that I bothered someone like Jess, I knew you're busy... I'm just so helpless that time :(

WS :'(

以为...

3/4 (日)

还以为今天早上 和父母去了UTAR问
我就能顺利地在金宝 过一年Foundation先
然后在那边认识一些志同道合的朋友 一起去PJ
修读我有兴趣读的Graphic Design
就跟我哥那时念他的course时的过程 超不多
可偏偏若要修读我要的那个course 连Foundation也要在PJ读 @@

他们以为我傻傻的 有事无事只会跟他们斗嘴吗??
那件伤人的事 我还是最早知道的那一位
或许说 大家都没有我那位好笑的朋友J 那么幸运吧
对 我们那班除了LY 全部薪水都是保持没变
我只是在装傻 不要说出来罢了
选择留在那边 纯粹是过下等着上大学的日子而已

我以为只要我对别人好 人家也会这样回报我
原来那个要套在好的对象 才有用的
其实人家心中都不知是感激 还是在笑我笨
而他们那不变又刻薄的说话方式 讲真我受够了
开玩笑也该有个程度吧?! 我好歹也是个小女生 :(
或许只能怪我的样子不讨喜 真是活受罪
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唉~ 除了看开点吧 都没有办法了
反正我已经心谈到下了决定 非要离开那边不可
偏心那件事 都已经把我忍得无话可说
本来还想做多几天 再跟他们说我做到4月尾就真的要停了
不过现在不必了 我觉得我应该离开了
在心里衷心地感谢他们对我的教导 和所做的一切的...

关于我的未来那一方面 我还在考虑着要换那一科
因为去PJ真的会很麻烦 那个campus又没有提供宿舍
交通也很乱水和不方便 毕竟我也不是很了解那一带罢了
加上没有朋友的陪伴一起去读 才是最关键的事
我不想我的父母为我担心 :S
我真的希望 我的决定 对我的未来有帮助

WS :S

Decision Time...

1/4 (Fri)

It's April Fool, but lucky I dint fool by any of my friends.. Blekk, try harder la next time :P Ohh ya, finally I've made the decision myself: I'm going to UTAR Kampar to study Foundation 1st then go to the PJ campus to study Graphic Design. The only choice I have and my parents can afford besides Form 6. Speaking of that, I just don't really like Form 6 don't know why. Even I study like hell there, the possibility of me to get the result I desire is quite LOW @@ To me, Form 6 is just so hard :S

Well, actually at 1st I wanna go to places like The One Academy, Lim Kok Wing University, Inti International College, etc because I'm studying Art. So I need to find somewhere which is nice in term of everything so my parents are not so worried. But those places are way expensive and a few days ago, I went to Sunway College Ipoh to ask for the course I'm interested at, of course with the accompany of my mum. ’Cause it's the closest place from my house. And well, that trip do let me know a lot of stuff.

Like those places I wanna go, usually provide diploma only, if you wanna top up to degree. Go overseas will be the only solution, I was like what?! My parents can't afford la #.# Even those places provide degree also, but can I apply student loan there?? That's a nice question, 'cause I'm from a normal family. And my result isn't good enough to apply any scholarship though. So going to UTAR's the only choice left, since the statements I mentioned above is provided there. :)

I'm going there this Sunday with my parents, to buy the application form and maybe finding a suitable room/house?! Now the hostel and living with who problem are making my head big :( Ergghh, I wish those nice room/house are still available for me. *Praying hard ><

P/S: The miracle I want won't happen, so I'm letting that feeling away. My next post might be about you....

WS :)