Whee :)

29/3 (Tue)

Hehehe, it's WL's birthday. So as plan, we went Parade to celebrate. Some cannot attend due to studying, working and so and so... *SM, miss you and we wish you're there >< I only managed to get a few friends coming after so many text I sent @@  Never mind, well at least the birthday girl said it's okay and I think she enjoyed her day :D Great to see those who are attended: MY, PL, JS, WT, SW and another MY, Munyi.

All together 8 person, so I bought a 1/2 kg cake for her. Then we could eat together and I don't know what she wanted, plus the cake's there is affordable. Well, I've forgotten the cake's name == Yet the cake's delicious, the chocolate flavour enrich with walnut I think?! I'm glad everyone like it, including me!! I think I'll go there to buy a slice or two of those cakes there to eat, shop name's Deli Garden.

Thanks to my mum and her colleague for giving me suggestion on where I should buy a cake for WL when the Secret Recipe at Syuen Hotel is closed today. Quite disappointed lo =3= PL's leaving early 'cause she needed to go for the car lesson, and JS went home early too. So left the six of us went to watch a movie :)) Due to the time, we choose to watch World Invasion.. Ermm, I think it's quite okay la~ Just a bit too long, I bought a drink and go inside drink *Rushing to the toilet when the movie ended, hahaa @@

Just realized I spent quite a lot today... That cake costs me rm24, then the movie ticket rm6 (thanks to my student card, enjoyed rm2 discount while purchasing the ticket ><) and drinks rm3.90. Almost rm34 lo, nearly the salary of me working for 2 days. Forgotten to request to divide the cake fees among them @@ Fine, mind these words: 讲钱伤感情 ahh~ So as least we're enjoyed, then that's enough :)

Only photo taken together ><

WS ;)

Confused *__*

26/3 (Sat)

Erghh, now confusing which college I should go~ Any scholarship from any association is willing to give scholarship to a 6A SPM holder??? So I really don't dare to apply also, hahaha == Thanks to all those elders who gave me "special gift" to congratulate me, frankly really too much (especially from my dear daddy ><) Tomorrow morning I'll follow SW to UTAR Kampar to ask for some information. Hahaha I knew there don't have the course I want, just going there to ask :)

This time you made me more confused. And I did some mistake at my working place too :( Erghhh, such an unpleasant day!!! Felt so sorry to that customer, I din't mean that at all :( I'm really dumbfounded by your status, I'm kinda lost control. I knew Jes was sicked when he heard this and wondered why I made the whole thing so so so complicated?! He said I should TRY to say out how I felt. Then in my mind's like: What if.....??? Zzzz, I can't do something like that if I'm not more than 70% sure..... I just knew it isn't me :|

Finally my dear SM replied my text, hope she's okay already. She said she knew what happened, but when will she tell me?? 'Cause I'll be quite busy, maybe couldn't meet her at fb chat... Fine, whatever.. treat it as I don't wanna know @@ Actually I really should let you out of my mind this time, I'm thinking too much already... And yet I don't want anything bad happen.

Sighh, ILY.... But I can't continue to let myself like this, it's torturing yet wasting time :L So either it's a YES or NO for me, staying blur and in the middle ain't what I wanted though.... Seriously, maybe I really need a new aim :S

WS :@

Move on!! :D

24/3 (Thurs)

Yesterday, 2010's Form 5 SPM candidates result day.... Damn nervous, and thank God that my result can consider okay :) At first I aimed for 7A, 'cause I want my name and face to be on the newspaper *Hahaa, I knew this thought's stupid but I like it :P Though I only got 1A less than my aim, but don't know why that stupid wish was fulfilled: my face's on today's newspaper!!! Reporters reached our school quite late == Those who got straight A waited for them so long, me with my gang waited for MY (and the reporters) so long @@

As some of the straight A students had left school. Teachers suggested letting those who are around to take photos, including me. I was quite embarrass when 1 of the reporters requested us to take the result slip at our hand and jump happily, I was like huhh?! *Frankly I think I should study harder and get better result == Another photo, we just clapped hand for the boy who got the best result in our school: KES. It was quite fake lo, lols. Fine, it's just a photo and yet I'm just a minor character in it. Hahaha, this's totally gifted by God. Thank him in my heart sincerely!! ♥

Then me, JY, MY and WL went to pay Steven a visit :) I miss him so much, and we talked a lot. I really appreciated for what he taught me and yet my result dint let him down :D My shoes are new and a bit stiff, damn it hurt the part near my heels~ Met BoyBoy with a friend when we reached the bus stop near the pasar, so I followed her by bus to Parade. Lucky I dint follow them to Omega, if not my legs will pain like hell *And I din't tuition there also XD Had a few minutes chat with my dear BoyBoy at Parade, seriously I was quite shocked that me and her could ever meet again.

She's leaving here after a few months, maybe going overseas. I knew the chances to meet her again is quite hard, 'cause she's always so busy. I wanted to tell her this badly: Leave some times for me and our Andajaya gang la!!! But if she really wanna meet us, she would asked the time we're free and try to plan an outing. So I won't do that and just let it be... Well, back to the topic... I re-met my gang at Parade with my dear CW and YL :D

We enjoyed a meal at Marry Brown, but me and YL bought food from Shilin and ate there with them. MY wasn't going to parade with us, WL went home early, and CW was at the saloon. So just left me, YL and JY walking here and there...and finally sat at the chairs in food court talking about a lots of stuff, shall I say that's gossip?? XD Erghh, actually I was quite disappointed that day. A bit about my result, mostly is about friends... 'Cause another gang was at jusco and another 1 went dating ==

I don't wanna say out the names 'cause who did it will know. The dating 1 wanna celebrate with her boy, this I can understand partly. She's going to KL this week, hope we'll hang out again as she has promised :S But another gang left school without saying anything, so where's the plan we've decided before this day??? Hmmphhh, I really dislike it lo... I got my rest that day to meet and have fun with you guys but why are we in different places "celebrating"?!.... So disappointed and sad, fine :(


P/S: My result proved that I'm not a Science material. All my Science subjects got B+ *Feel so sorry to my Science teachers T.T  Now thinking when should I let my Science tuition teachers know my result == Interior Design, which college I should study you??

WS :)

A few more days....

20/3 (Sun)

Nothing could best describe my feelings now, I'm superb nervous!!! 'Cause my future really depends on that sheet of paper. If not, I don't know where I'll be.. I fell so lost every time when someone mention about going where to study?? I can't really answer them, 'cause I don't know :( The course I'm interested to further study is nothing related to Science, which is Interior Design.

Exclude all the unhappy issues that happened, I'm still very fed up about the course thing. Because high chances that I might end up studying something I don't like. My result in class ain't nice, I'm a little regret that why I didn't choose Art stream at the 1st place. But I dislike economic, so Science stream's still the better choice for me. But when I reached Form 5, superb regret 'cause my result's terrible in 1 exam: nearly bottom ranked!! That really effect me badly, my worst ranking and result ever!!!

And my trial ain't that nice also, with my brother studying at KL. It's nearly impossible that I'll go KL study my course, though the university/college there are really more standard. Plus I didn't submit anything at all while schooling, 'cause I know: with my result, I get nothing. Don't waste time!! == And my parents wanted me to study somewhere near them, 'cause they're worried about me. Goshh, I think they kinda hope I would go to Form 6?!

Haizzz, I really don't know what's left with me??? :S Just wish me luck okay, the rest just let God decide. Though I'm not so in the religious thingy, but I still believe there's a God that would help those needy in this universe :)

P/S: I'm like giving another chance for you?! Idk, will you notice it?? Idk either, when we'll meet?? :P

WS :|

Spectacular day :D

16/3 (Wed)

Weeee, I went hang out with my dear SM today. We met at parade, 'cause my condition is so so so not good. To meet SM, I offered my mum to wait at her office and then when it's about time I walked there. If not, I might pass my rest today like usual: eat+sleep+read+online == Well, we planned to meet there at 12pm and my mum with tons of works wanna go home at 7pm. So in my mind: I need to walk at the same place more than 6 hours, I rather walk back to her office when it's about 5pm.

That single day, I think I walked more than the usual day I walked when I was working, hahaha == But I glad I choose to meet SM today, I really miss her badly. Though my legs are tired and 2 of my toe nails are like... *argghhh I'll just skip it, long story and I hate them :S  Like old times we talked non-stop, hehehe >< Just the both of us, 'cause I can't answer her when she asked me can I go out at the 1st place.

I wish our Andajaya gang were there badly!! I wanna pinch my dear smelly NJY's face badly, she's such a cutie!!! And I wanna talk with PL, WT, WL and of course my dear BoyBoy ahh!!! So since I haven't eat my lunch, we ate and drank stuff together, then talked about any topics we wanna tell each other. I'm so sure: She's definitely one of my besties that won't change by time and distance, hahaha :) I ♥ HER so much ><

Well, she and the JH issue.. Ermm, I hope she does something right about it. I told her already: I'll support whatever decision she made. Hahaa, she became so famous at her campsite and among my school mates because of that. Like she should be, 'cause we're like that kind of people that mix around and knew a lot of friends. Well, of course she knew more people than I do. :D

P/S: SM was right, you're like out of touch with us after SPM. Now you're back from NS, the situation's same also. Frankly I don't know why you are busy again??? Errghh, the yumcha plan was postponed from December till now... Can I hate you?? :(

WS :P

Disappointed...

14/3(Mon)

Arghh!! I'm superb disappointed. Finally I got my rest per week on that day, Wednesday- they plan to hang out at JJ as those NS friends have came out. But you said: Why you must go out and play when you got your break?? Can't you stay home and rest?! I wanna meet my friends badly, it's been months I din't meet them but what you said just now like disapproving me going out to have some fun. They're my buddies from school, not working friends I just met on Sunday!!!

And you, wanted me to ask for his permission 'cause you said we won't listen to what you say. I just wonder: What I did that made you angry today??? Hello, I got a nice plan that won't bother your working time.. But did you hear that 1st before you said those words?? I go there by bus, then you come to fetch me about the time you finish your work. And you're right that I'm mad that you sort of no agree me to go out. :(

Even I don't really know which bus and where I could board that bus, but I could ask someone who know it and learn to be independent. I know some parts in me just wish that I can borrow my mum's car, and then attend the outing as I wanted. Just I need to fetch her when she finish her work, but the sad part's: after I got my licence, I din't even touch my parents' cars steering before :S  My recent fb status maybe will let those who see it or comment on it, think I'm selfish. Maybe I am, so just say it- I won't mind :(

Fine, I rejected my friend finally. The both of you just want me to stay home and be a nerdy isn't it?? Hang out was prohibited during my secondary school life, and now you don't allow me to do so. I always say I would hang out as I wanted after SPM, but I din't do so. 'Cause I got work and I'm trying to not bother the both of you that much, and be more considerate yet doing things I wanna do. 家家有本难念的经> suddenly I feel it was so suitable to use to describe my situation....

WS :(

Bored ==

12/3(Sat)

Today's raining during dinner time, but there's still a lot of customers coming my shop to have a meal. There's insufficient workers at there, so the result's we're all very x10000 busy. Even P as the cashier also need to come out and help us served @@ So W wants me to ask YY and PY if they could come back to help during weekends. Just now I did something insane again, I told them: I might stay till Mid of April if my situation allow me to *Blaming myself again 'cause obviously my sympathy is haunting. Haizz, I'm idiot right?? :(

Seriously, I'm curious that why so less people come there to ask for job??? And today was damn busy until I did quite some mistakes, hoping those customers won't blame me. 'Cause I really din't mind it, a thousand apologies from me sincerely =3= Meet Banana with her bf today, they said they came to visit me X) They're so sweet, I'm envious. Speaking of that newbie, he's at my shop for more than 7 days. But I still think he's blur and not very alert, wondering when he'll start to order. ==

Besides working, I'm superb bored at home. Wanna hang out with friends so much, but opsss they want to meet at Jusco for movie?! My mum don't wanna fetch me till that far, her office's in town. So due to no transport, I usually reject 'cause I can't attend at all. It's like no difference even when I got my rest per week, like last week I just stayed home and did these stuff: sleep, eat and read books + newspapers == Feel so out of touch with my buddies, but what I can do??? :S


P/S: For what I've seen just now, I knew my waiting for you is pointless. You don't care at all, maybe my heart is thorning but it's okay... So like what I told myself, I should start to get over you no matter what right???

WS ='|

This's nothing....

10/3 (Thursday)

I'm very unhappy right now. I'm not sure what made my mood into this, probably what J said. 'Cause he saw A's hands on my shoulder, so he said: Owhh, finally I know why you hate guys!!! *I can assure you, he's so wrong about it == Then before 11.30pm, I stood there seeing C went home early again. Hell, why always so unfair???

What J said should cause nothing to me, and that C going home early, I usually could bare it 'cause she's about to leave. But this time I can't, I just felt awfully terrible. A lot of unhappy memories flashed back my minds, how can I be smiling?? Well J said I hate guys, he really don't understand me at all. So just be it 'cause he don't have to. And hello, I just hate some of them, with suck mouth + attitude. Especially those who think they're so cool or handsome but eventually they're just looked normal. Yucksss, I think it's irritating!!!

The C going back home at an early time issue, made me thought of something not fair that happened to me in school. When I was a trainee prefect in afternoon session, I don't know why my leader and group leader treated me like they don't care?! *Even my performance isn't nice, you're so wrong in doing that!! 'Cause when I become a senior myself, I'm so damn sure I won't be that concentrated in my duties anymore. Thanks to your guys. Hmmpph, and things like that happened again in morning session: I still remember my 1st TL so partial about some of his members, that he treated me like he don't care.

Actually I'm a bit regret that I din't quit prefect in my morning session, but for the Coco marks I stayed. Days in there made me aware how dark the society is even before I stop schooling. Well, blame who?! Whatever, I would dislike those suckers always. Days in girl guide was not easy though, I don't wanna mention it. Maybe that time they're still naive but what they did that hurt me, I would definitely remember. Not that I wanted to, just those issues let me can't treat them like nice friend anymore :(

Those ugly past, I should just ignore it always. But now it made me so helpless, 'cause those lessons I learnt there are not enough. The world outside is even worser than I thought. Fine, the only reason I can tell myself is: I don't look that favourable in their view. Haizz, and that means I don't have the so-called "good" look to survive at all. Is that so important??? :(

P/S: What's left to me after fourteen more days??? I can't imagine :S

WS :'(

Not my day :(

6/3 (Sun)

Should be learning to drive my mum's car by now, with my dad by my side *assisting... But my mum said the weather is quite hot, and my dad's reading his newspaper + watching TV program right now. Lucky I din't go out, 'cause I'm like sweating in my room @@ So I just switch on my pc and come here to write something. I gotta write 'cause my mood ain't right :(

Thanks to Jeffrey, I knew a freaking ugly truth. His salary increases, so did the Thai guy who has left. They're working at the branch shop, but I did remember my supervisors told me this when they hired me: 2nd month onwards your salary "might" increase, so the branch thing isn't an excuse at all. Well the fact's my salary per hour's still the same, and after hearing that thing: I wonder is it my performance not well enough?? But all my dear YE-4 members who've left also the same with me, so am I thinking too much??? =3=

Crap!! Now I did wished he din't tell me, at least won't infect me so badly... Maybe to you guys, it's the matter of money. But to me, it's the matter of fair / not fair. They allow C to go home early when there's not much people working there. Exclude all those things I dislike about her, I just don't get it and I won't. Hell I just felt like I was being cheated, I wanna leave as fast as I could= the end of this month as I promised them. :'(

P/S: sui ren, don't think negatively. That's not you!!! *Waiting ><

WS X(

离别...

1/3 (二)

好久没写华语, 现在就来篇华语的吧 :P
昨天28/2 是LY, YY和PY在那工作的最后一天...
好不舍得.. 但这是她们的选择, 我只能看着她们走...
YY没人载她回家, 没工作这段时间在家专心做ELF *不如你就去找份工做吧 XD
而PY的美容课程就来开始了~ *以后洗面来找你 ><

LY呢, 离开莫非是为了自己的前途好.. *祝你早日找到你要的工作!!

星期一大家一起去老地方吃一餐, 当作是farewell吧~
那边的东西不错咯~ 不过有算tax, 就好像贵了点...

某人自荐帮我们拍的.. 嘻嘻, 我会很想你们的 ;)

你们没来之前我也都这样挨过.. 所以放心LY, 我会好好的 :)
你们3个都给我加油啊!!! 得空记得约我出来见面 :D

对了, 没有错的话: 阿雯也走了, 以后那1个月会闷死了 =3=
Annie好像也快离开了... Yin Yee这个拜四也要走了..
幸好拜五有2个新人来~ 期待-ing... 至少工作也不会那么闷啦 :)
现在YE-4剩下我一个在那边罢了咯, 没了她们就是不一样~


P/S: 写着写着到了半夜, 是你的生日 ><
你都还在当兵, 出来才过你要的18岁吧...
不多写了, 礼物别想跟我要.. 你欠我很多东西!!! :P
I think ISLY, no doubt.. but how about you?? :)