I need to write it out no matter what!! Don't blame me for ignoring you as you should know I would treat you like this. Don't you think the condition's awkward?! From bf downgrade to friend, you expect me to treat you like how I treat my friends?! You're too naive, I need time freaking badly to accept the changes in our relationship lo!! I already blocked you from viewing my wall, I won't remove you from my friend list. I still can handle it... Ishh, it's just so not my day. FML!! :S
Haizzz, things between us dint run smooth, we quarrel like once a week. You're the 1st guy that made me cried that much. You always gave me the feel like I'm a bad gf, or maybe I am :'( I'm laying my trust on you but why I don't feel that you're doing the same on me?? You always know I need private time for myself. You knew I can't accept your phone call that publicly when I'm in my Ipoh home. You cared and you said it will be fine soon, but why you sounds like you're accepting it unwillingly??
You failed to lie me, so just admit it: I can't satisfy your needs!! You know I can't always text you, even I got another sim card, but it's not that convenient. Erghh, I really dislike the phone bill issue!! This month it's over again, and my mum's mumbling about that again == Fine, there won't be any chance my phone bill will exceed that much again. Never :@ Or maybe I'm too greedy, I'm like expecting you to understand my condition. But you dint, even you did, you're still not happy about what I did that made you worried.
Got an outing with my buddies this afternoon and they woke me up some how: you're so not my type after all. They're indeed questioned by my choice, as they understand me too much!! *My ideal bf is always the SMZ type :O That time I'm really doubting should I voice out to let it calm 1st and let us figure out whether we should continue or not. If you're around, I'll really feel uncomfortable when I'm with my friends. I really need to have a girly talk with them...
I knew you're mad, you kept on calling me to know my stuff, then finally I received your text telling me your request to be friends 'cause you can't stand with me anymore. Which means you don't want me anymore, you don't love me anymore, all those things that we experience together ain't important to you anymore. Okay, great!! I totally respect your choice. I gave you mostly everything and this's the ending I got. You're abandoning me :(( Well, I'm glad that I dint cry that time and I still can firm myself up to go to work :X
I don't think I got the courage to reject them as I already promise them to come to work on the Merdeka public holiday because of you. I felt unproductive, kinda useless and my legs are arching but luckily I din't break anything. Can I suddenly tell them I'm sick and I can't come to help them the next day?? I really need time, I'm really not okay but I need to pretend that I'm okay. That's me, I just don't like the feel of making people worry about me.
Whatever it's, it's over for the last time. I'm reluctant that we have to end this way that quickly but I have to. Yea, I'm crying for you for the last time also. Maybe this is the better way for the both of us... And maybe being with me it's a huge mistake that you have ever made!! Please leave me alone, I'm alright. I deserved nothing....
P/S: Gossh, I really need to study hard for my final already. I can feel the pressure already. Stop being lackadaisical ahh, I need my study mood now!!! :C
WS :'(
