New life......

26/5 (Thurs)

Orientation's boring :( And this few day waking up early then cycle to school, back to home and to the place for dinner made me so damn exhausted!!! My legs muscles are aching already :S The road to my university is long and some paths are a bit slant, every time I reach school.... My whole body's sweating already and I felt like melting @@ I'm not that into exercising I know == Lucky 1 of my friend is good enough to let me know where to board the bus, thank him so much!!! :))

So today me and my friends boarded the bus to go to the school, it's F.O.C in the orientation week. But I dint regret cycling to school either, I must slowly suit myself into this life. My university's huge, got a lot of blocks. I think I'll lose some weight soon with those walking and cycling there. Well, met a few famous ex-poilam students which I knew there *Is this the correct words to describe them?? XD I was glad that they recognise me, I need friends in a new surroundings :PP

Though I felt quite not good skipping those talks and activities for orientation, but I just feel tired and wanna have more sleep!! In the end, me and PL decided not to go to school tomorrow. Ohh yaa, she's my room mate now :) I really hope things like argument don't happen between us. But maybe she's leaving me next year. This's quite not sure yet but I gotta be prepared to live on my own as well. And frankly, I'm not very satisfied with my room lo. Erghh, feel like changing my room immediately but I can't... Need to do some survey 1st....

I miss home badly, I miss online-ing till midnight like last time badly... I'm blogging at midnight again == I know I need a very healthy life style here in my Kampar home, so that I got enough energy for cycling :S I miss the once and only you too, maybe a bit more than him. Maybe is because the "no aim" thing he said, which means my sense's so freaking wrong. I think I won't believe my sense about myself any more :( I don't want things like that happen to me next time, but I just realised 1 fact about myself> I do fall for someone cute easily....

WS :'(

A bit nervous....

16/5 (Mon)

At 1st, my mum left me and my brother at the government clinic in Greentown which is just beside the general hospital. The purpose's to get my medical report done, my brother said maybe the school has too many people studying there. The authorities scared there's infection of virus or something among students. So when it's finally my turn, the man who sat at the registration counter there asked me 24th of May boleh ahh?? Goshh, I need to wait 1 week for that check up and that day I need to be attend in my school to get myself register lehh ==

So I asked him can arrange at Friday or weekends?? As I won't be around Ipoh to come to the clinic. And he said NO, I forgot places like this don't operate on these days. Ishhh, so fed up la =3= Lucky he's helpful enough to let me know there's another place which I can do the check up as well, he gave us a flyer with package to choose and little map on it. After I called and told my mum about that, I needed to go there as it's my only solution to get it done. So we spent don't know how many minutes by foot to reach the next destination, Kinta Medical Centre. The weather nowadays is so freaking hot, I felt like melting #-#

The package I needed for my medical report costs me rm45, and I can do the urine test and X-ray today. No need to book time, hehehe :) Physical check up is tomorrow and so is the results. And I need to see the dentist tomorrow for check up as well, scare got decayed tooth now :S Most of my study stuff are well prepared, except some haven't even pack. In my mind: Life there with lots of cycling would definitely make my skin tan and make my weight drop to normal, which means there'll be a more healthy me?? Maybe XD 'Cause I think I'm a bit pale right now~

And the main point of the title of this post> Nervous. Well about the course I choose is mostly, the homework and assignment thing is partly. I'm studying science in my secondary school but now I'm heading for Foundation in Arts then Advertising. Ermm, wondering is it what I wanted to be as my career?? Really hope my decision now will guarantee me a good future :) The homework and assignment thing I'll get the chance to solve it soon. Now I just hope I'll get acceptable or maybe "okay-good" result in my exam, am I asking too much?? ==

I was so angry at somebody last night, I think I'm wrong but he's not that right after all. It's fact that I've experienced that thing before then so what?? Well guess I'm expecting too much from him, expecting him to understand my feelings. But eventually he won't get it, that thing affected me badly. I faced serious problem that time and nobody could help me. Even after it ended, I got some troubles I caused myself to settle. So this's why I don't like the way he addressed me. It's way different from the way we addressed him.

Erghh, feel like apologizing but I don't wanna find him. His reaction tells me all, he's not anxious at all though I'm mad at what he said to me. Like what I said: I'll get the hell out of your life, I meant it... So the conclusion's my instinct about myself is always a failure. Erghh :( What will happen next I don't know. I just sense that our friendship had somehow came to a terrible bend, can it be fixed?? :S

WS :|

Erghhh =3=

13/5 (Fri)

Seriously I abandoned here quite long, I feel like writing something BUT I can't find the time :( Been busy trying to get used to my new phone, laptop and shopping for stuffs that I need to use in my university life. After I stopped the my previous job- waitress there, I don't even got time to rest like I've planned: efficient sleep and play  Erghh, thanks to my mum but luckily today's my last day :) SO no more accounting work for me anymore, I'm sick of rearranging resits and typing documents ==

After I changed my phone, I can't receive MMS and see the photos like last time. Need to solve that problem as soon as possible... Another problem's the music library thing: It can't read Chinese alphabets!! It shows strange symbols :C After I searched online then I knew it's a common problem some users of X8 faced also, but why I can't find any solution from the Sony Ericson's discussion wall page?! == So now gotta wait my brother come back to help me solve, 'cause those solutions from the web I don't really get it :S

And my laptop, it's same with SW!!! Such a coincident :S Should be making it more personal and private by now, but recently my mum's using it to online for fb game == Erghh, how am I gonna to transfer all my stuffs like musics and photos from desktop to there ahh?! I need to sleep early as I gotta work some more. But now I'm just glad my working life is finally ended.... I felt like fainting when my mum's colleague ask why I don't work until the day I start schooling?!

I think I'm gonna become SIAO if I continue to work there with insufficient sleep nearly everyday, as I need to online for gaming as well but the line nowadays = =## This somehow shows that accounts don't suit me, YUCKS :L Ohh ya, Form 6 has started!! I miss all my old school friends, but I'm not going there with them. As I dint plan to enter local university at the 1st place also. Can't meet them as frequent like last time, as sometimes not everyone is free. They're all changing as expected, even I'm changing too. My point of view definitely widens up with some working experience :)

Meeting my working friends, S and PJ tomorrow afternoon, a bit scare that I might be too tired to handle that outing :( LY, YY and PY can't attend also, thinking of changing the date but it's kinda complicated. YY, add oil in that damn place ahh!!! I think we'll hang out again soon *DON'T WORRY :)) I'll remember the wedding dinner we attended together, nw waiting for our photos to be uploaded. CW and P you 2 looked so handsome and pretty, thanks for everything!! Won't forget you guys, K and that JW with an irritating mouth XD

Still got lots to write but I really need to sleep by now, I can't promise when I'll come back here again but here's my place so I'll come back here for sure. Tata ;)

WS :D

Confused feelings...

2/5 (Mon)

Yesterday and a day before that, I went back my working place to help them work :) Well, nothing happened to me. Don't worry, I wasn't injure at all. 'Cause I dint bother that sucker at all, hahaha. It was not boring on the 1st day 'cause not boring lo~ Got a hell lot of customers to serve but with enough waiters, this's definitely a good thing you know :D

On the 2nd day, guess who I met?? I was panicked when I realized that person's you sitting there, as a customer. I remember I said I got the feel that I won't ever meet you again... Ohh great, my sense really proved me wrong this time :( And yet, I broke the promise I made to myself which says: I won't care things about you anymore. Maybe I shouldn't make you notice me, 'cause obviously you dint until I walked passed your table looking at you. :S You asked those things like you've noticing me all this while, I'm like don't know how to answer those questions. I need to stop a while then only can answer.

And I spent a few minutes talking with you, in a hectic hour as the restaurant's full of customers. In the end, you left there without bidding "Bye-bye" to me :( It was raining at that time, the customers couldn't sit outside, so maybe that's why you and your friends were forced to leave early... It's like what you should do, and I always wonder: Is this the way you treat me as your friend?? But that's totally fine to me already, I got my life to go on and so do you. Maybe this's destine on what will happen between us. Well, whatever @@

Today's such a nice day with an outing at Jusco with SM and MK. Finally this day had came, we've planned to meet since MK came out from NS. Blekk, MK's still that naughty but nice fellow I knew. Hope he could solve the distance thing with his girl. And glad to know that he's much more slimmer and a bit taller :) Then my dear SM, thanks for the Domo purse> I loved it!!! Maybe a little bit problem occured but I think her relationship thingy with JH is quite smooth. It's nice that her guy treats her so well. Hehee, wish both of my buddies good luck on their life. Heart them ♥

And the most important thing which happened just now, really made me happy and sad. 'Cause I finally bought a new phone. And so did my mum, gotta teach her how to use as well :)) *My dad's paying or the money's deducted out from my salary?! Well, I'll know that later :P A bit difficulties while using the new phone as I'm a Nokia user. My whole family use Nokia phone but now I'm using Sony Ericsson. Gotta use sometime to suit it's function. Ohh ya, the sad part's I gotta give my old phone to my dad 'cause his phone got a bit problem. Which mean> All the messages, data inside my old phone need to be deleted. A bit reluctant, but I have to :(

WS :)