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Saturday, November 24, 2012
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
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7/11 (Wed)
His birthday is tomorrow. Because of me, we had a quarrel again. I really hate it when everytime he said he don't have mood to continue his work then goes to bed. For all the urging and tolerance I made, it's just not helpful enough or what? So no doubt the reason is still me?! He suppose to hand in most of his homework weeks ago, but he dint. So it's already a late submission and he don't mind? Even though he kept on convincing me that he can finish it before his birthday.
But now I think he won't get to finish it in time and I don't get to celebrate with him. Cause he's pissed with me and my bad temper for not tolerating him, he actually asked me to not scold him that much? So actually all is my bad huh?? I start every single argument, every quarrel is because of me, I'm the cause of your mood swing to not continue your work, hence I'm the one who always cause you can't finish your work in time. In conclusion, I'm the one at fault right??
Well I admit I got bad temper and always lose control, I won't be prefect and so does him. I already did tried my best to suit to his likes and dislikes, and even his shit lifestyle which is so inhuman. What else I need to do?? Isn't love about tolerating and suiting each other? Maybe our case's not the same as I thought, no trust, only scarification and endless crying. He only feel the hatred he had towards me, no more love and pity for his loyal gf? :'(
And now after one year plus, it's great that he don't even care whether I'm crying or not, he only think it's annoying. When he's pissed, he only will ignore me and get some sleep cause he's freaking tired for all those late-sleeping rushing for homework. He won't chase me back at all, no call, nothing at all, he wouldn't worry about me even a single bit. And I'm the one always finding him back. Just now he said he wanted freedom, most probably get irritated by me already.
I think I can't find any reason to bother him already I guess? Maybe that's the best birthday gift I can give him, and he wanted it that badly too. All that explain why I'm so undeserved, and it really really serve me right. * I'm really worried about his future and ours as well, but now no need to worry anymore? :/
His birthday is tomorrow. Because of me, we had a quarrel again. I really hate it when everytime he said he don't have mood to continue his work then goes to bed. For all the urging and tolerance I made, it's just not helpful enough or what? So no doubt the reason is still me?! He suppose to hand in most of his homework weeks ago, but he dint. So it's already a late submission and he don't mind? Even though he kept on convincing me that he can finish it before his birthday.
But now I think he won't get to finish it in time and I don't get to celebrate with him. Cause he's pissed with me and my bad temper for not tolerating him, he actually asked me to not scold him that much? So actually all is my bad huh?? I start every single argument, every quarrel is because of me, I'm the cause of your mood swing to not continue your work, hence I'm the one who always cause you can't finish your work in time. In conclusion, I'm the one at fault right??
Well I admit I got bad temper and always lose control, I won't be prefect and so does him. I already did tried my best to suit to his likes and dislikes, and even his shit lifestyle which is so inhuman. What else I need to do?? Isn't love about tolerating and suiting each other? Maybe our case's not the same as I thought, no trust, only scarification and endless crying. He only feel the hatred he had towards me, no more love and pity for his loyal gf? :'(
And now after one year plus, it's great that he don't even care whether I'm crying or not, he only think it's annoying. When he's pissed, he only will ignore me and get some sleep cause he's freaking tired for all those late-sleeping rushing for homework. He won't chase me back at all, no call, nothing at all, he wouldn't worry about me even a single bit. And I'm the one always finding him back. Just now he said he wanted freedom, most probably get irritated by me already.
I think I can't find any reason to bother him already I guess? Maybe that's the best birthday gift I can give him, and he wanted it that badly too. All that explain why I'm so undeserved, and it really really serve me right. * I'm really worried about his future and ours as well, but now no need to worry anymore? :/
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